you drown out the thunder

Grey skies, green eye smile for me
Have i ever told you the way you glow in the dark?
All the times I said I'd give up
all the nights I spent staying up
all the nights you spent telling me what a bad idea it was

you know just how far I can sink
and for some reason you still stand by me
say you will, say you will
and you know I will too
say you won't, say you won't,
I'll still stick to you like glue

grey skies, brown eye smile for me
have I ever told you how you shine in the dark?
there's no lights in here so could you please come here?
Everything around you lights up when you're near

now listen, precious, I know that things are hard
and settle, darling, you know I won't lie
things will stay rough
you're the toughest that i know, and you won't let this one tear you apart
you've been through worse and back
and you'll see your light when you remember your part

now listen, precious, I know that things are hard
and settle darling, you know I won't lie
I know what you're thinking and we both know it's not right
you know I've been there before and you didn't let me give up the fight
I know what you're thinking and you never wanted me to
so why wouldn't I extend that same courtesy to you?

grey skies, green eye smile for me
have i ever told you how you shine in the dark?
grey skies, brown eye smile for me
you'll find your spot with this
listen, precious, call it your brand new start

you used to say

I've tried to keep a track of this
you always said you were the best
said this guitar's always had the best
your vocal chords said you had this

i've got this void to fill
you've got this voice to hear

feel the music dripping down your finger tips
bleeding out red from your wrist
feel it hit the ground like your last shred of love

i always said you were the best
so who's there to make up for this?
on the day that I wed will you be there
to tell me what I did wrong?
Like you did every other time?

i said i never knew of it
but i'm always keeping track on this
you said it was love
i said everything short of "you're a liar."

so feel it dripping off your finger tips
the way my hope dripped off the tip of your tongue

i've got this void to fill,
you've got this voice to hear
these screams got nothing to say
since there's nothing you want to hear

i tried to keep track of this
you always said you were the best
i wish you weren't right about it
but you've got all these songs playing for nothing

so pretend they mean it
pretend you care
pretend it means something
to someone somewhere
pretend you were right all along

so pretend you mean it
pretend they care
pretend it means nothing
to no one anywhere
pretend you were right all along

nothing irreparable has happened here

I can't pretend to know what you're going through
and in all honesty I don't care
you had your chance to change your station
and you passed it up like a forgotten prayer

said it never really mattered if all you gave me were lies
and it still won't matter because you're not where my future lies

so drop your head to your pillow
let out a breath
you got through today
and you've got nothing left
what's the point in waking up
to a cold dark room
when your whole point of waking up
has left you for good

tell your stories about the one who was right
go home at night and close your eyes
out of sight, out of mind, out of your big brown eyes
give a trite (excuse), see your plight, and give up the fight

excuse me miss, I think you dropped this on the ground
it looks like a list of reasons why you're not home bound
it's funny, I think that my name's at the top of it
bright bold letters say it better, at least you know who was right all along

Jennifer's Song

I'm no philosopher,
light and death are none of my concern
I'm just a boy with a mic and a guitar
that was given to me to play to ease your heart
you're just a girl with a voice and a heart
that needs something like this to plan a new start

I'm this broken hearted boy
who's got all these bandaids to try
and as much as I bleed, you'd think my guitar'd have stained by now
and you're this lost and hurting girl
you've got plenty laid out to try
as much as you sing, I'd think your vocal chords would bleed by now

but these songs keep coming
and the words keep slipping
and I'm stuttering over vials of verbs

she said "why do you always ask the deepest questions?"
I said I'm no phiolosopher,
but there's things I care to know

So listen to these songs
because that's the best you'll get of me
the honest truth, always the the best
always hurts the most to say
maybe they'll help you get some sleep
have a dream, for once, for once
maybe they'll help ease your pain
have a break, for once, for once

so take what you want from this
i wrote it all for you
that what you can from this
but in the end, (love), know
(love, love, love, love, love, love)
I'll sing until it's true
take what you may from this
but int he end, (love), know,
(love, love, love, love, love, love)
it's all been done for you

all these words bleed and tell the truth
so don't think it's me singing when this is stuck inside your head
I own the words, but what they said is what you said
you needed to hear
I'm just a story teller
you're the one living a life
I'm just a reporter
breaking news against the background fires
I'm just a story teller
you're the one giving life
to all these songs
singing in front of all these fires

This is how you pretend you're a real girl

I never loved you

 The way that I said 

You’re just a bad luck girl 

Who wants to live like the rest 

So call your boyfriend 

Though he treats you like shit 

Tell him how many hearts you’ve broken for him  

 You’re no stranger to lies and deceit 

So why the hell are you glaring at me?  

 You never loved me 

The way that you said 

I’m just a loveless boy 

Asleep like the rest 

So I’ll call all my friends 

And tell them about all the hearts you’ve broken for him   

You said you know you made a mistake 

Well that’s the first half of being right 

So let’s see the rest 

Well you ran back to him 

And that’s the last half of anything I thought we had left   

You know, you’re cute when you get that sly smile 

The one that says your mind’s made up in a mile 

But I’ll just sit here 

Feign some denial 

Because the only thing that’s real is your movie script style   

And baby, you know how I feel 

And you keep striking nails 

Attempt to feel real 

But it won’t work and let me tell you why 

Everything you break just takes you further away 

Everything you hurt just furthers the pain   

So drown your sorrows in that broken bottle 

There’s nothing I can say to make you swallow any harder 

And let’s hope for once in your life 

The alcohol makes you feel like you’ve done something right   

So drown your sorrows in his broken hands 

There’s nothing I could do to make you callous any faster 

But let’s pray, for once in your life 

The bruises are enough to make you feel alive   

Cigarettes and Sutures

sitting in the glow of the park lights

your last cigarette's smoke blows

like your last breath.

It's orange like the lights

it's orange like your mood

This is the part where I say something that makes you feel alive

but after times like these I have nothing left to say to you

you used to say you love me

and smile

and now you say it and wince

well baby I'm done with this

baby I'm done with you

and when we leave you'll know

sitting in the glow of the park lights

your last drag is done and we're in the night

here the day changes as fast as you gave up the fight.

and your eyes are shined over

but it's not from the drugs you ingested in the hope they'd make you feel alive

after times like these there's nothing left to take

I hear the birds in silence

in the frame of what you're about to say

and don't you think I knew that?

I'm only here cause of the nicotine in the air

not to hear old news about your new boy

so drop the smoke in a way that makes me smile.

watch it creep out your lips like the words of a lost child

I said the only reason I wouldn't be in your life is if you chose that path

well, you've been walking forever so why am I still holding your hand?

You're a liar, but I'm ok with that.

She said you had a head on your shoulders

and it looks like she were right

she said you were looking for love

but you're looking too hard

there was a time when you'd let me in on things

and now its too far gone

now i won't lecture 

because you've been here before

but i won't cross my fingers

cause you're walking out that door

and now you're back into his arms again?

control, manipulating your hands again?

am i even in your thoughts again?

painful, i know, manipulating your words again

suddenly everything has changed again

you gave me hope

of a time better spent

now it's breathe or choke

and you're gasping for that oxygen

I'm done bleeding over you

just thought I'd let you know

because it's obvious you're done 

breathing over me

don't worry babe, I know

Except this never happened.

Remember that joke you used to tell me?

The one where you said that you still loved me?

Let me tell you,

Before I caught you laughing I 

hung on to those words like they were oxygen

I breathed them in and breathed them out

but that was before I breathed curses under them

Remember that joke you used to tell?

The one about that boy who loved you?

That was a good one too,

except for all the nights spent lying under you

with you lying to my face

I breathed those words in, in and out

but that was before everything I found out...

I'm waiting for the punch line

as you're laughing with all your friends

I think that when I get it

I won't think it's nearly as funny as them

And that's not ok, but I'll say it is

because i like the way you smile

Remember when you got my hopes up?

And crushed them under your heel?

That wasn't too funny, and not all that clever,

but you'll know that when I repay the way I feel

They say an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind

but a heart for a heart means nothing

when your heart died years ago

They say an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind

but a heart for a heart means nothing

when your heart is as cold as the stone above my bed

I'm waiting for the punch line

as you're laughing with all your friends

I think that when I get it

I won't think it's nearly as funny as them

And that's not ok, but I'll say it is

because i like the way you smile

The love that you gave up on

all that love you left

Won't be here if you decide you want me back.

I'll move on, no more waiting

for you to say that shit again

Remember the joke I told?

The one about leaving you out in the cold?

Well, I think it'll be funny

when I'm watching you through the window sill

And maybe you will and maybe you won't

But I do hope you appreciate the irony I've built up

because I like the way you smile

Remember all the jokes we told each other?

Well, they're hers and mine now.

Remember the way we fit across your sheets?

Well we fit even better now

They said something about salts in wounds

and I'm hoping for them to form

so I can show you how this burns

"You Better Buy A One Way Ticket And A Moving Van"

You're gonna get on that flight tonight
and the only thing I can say is "don't forget me"
I've got this feeling you will
and I can't bear to take that with me

you were scared
i know, i know, i know
and you needed hands
i know, i know, i know
but i hope you see
i hope, i hope, i hope,
that mine are a better fit than his

in this moment you can't move
and its something wish you could
i'll stay here and fucked up for you
my eyes were red all night for you
i told them it was just the smoke
but really, this couldn't even come close

so go ahead
think i'm treating you better
in all honesty
it's just what you deserve
so go ahead
think him the better kisser
in all honesty
you haven't felt what you deserve

so go ahead
because in all honesty
just go ahead
in all honesty
i just hope you're happy
i mean go ahead
in all honesty
just go ahead
in all honesty
i can't help but hope
you choose me

you're gonna get on that flight tonight
and the only thing I have is
"call me when you get there"
maybe he'll forget
and maybe then you'll see
but I've got this feeling you'll forget
and i can't take that with me

(forget all about me, again)

crossed fingers, broken hearts
remember the way we fell apart?
remember all the chances in your heart?
lucky pennies, shooting stars
do you know what i wished for
in november nights?
i hope, i hope, i hope,
i hope you meant all those things you said

and I know, I know, I know,

you waited years just for this part

throwing quarters, little dippers
i hope you meant it when you said

i love you
and when you told me that it was over
i died
at least a little on the inside
i lost what you had given me
it was just too painful, see
it was just too plain to see
and maybe maybe maybe
when you land
you'll look him in the eyes
and maybe maybe maybe
when you land
you'll understand
what i've been saying all along

you waited years

then you gave up on me

i waited years

and i'm still waiting to see

you waited years

you were much to scared

i waited years

knowing soon you'll be brave

you're gonna get off that flight tonight

and when you do

i hope you think of me