"it sounds to me like she just needs time"

I'll keep the beat on this balcony 

and we've got family singing into the night

and it's a downhill from here

so just sit tight, and I'm just buzzed enough to

play you a lullaby

and I'm sure there's a key I could sing in just to win your heart

so I'll try them all out on you, just play your part

smile real big and you've already won my heart

look me in the eyes again, here's where the fun starts

and that's two down, how many to go?

well I hope you decide to stick around

for the end of the show

because I'm playing al my songs for you girl,

and trying not to shake so hard my heart explodes

and I'm sure there's a key I could sing in just to win your heart

so I'll play all your favorites, just play your part

smile like you do you've already won my heart

look me in the eyes again, here's where the fun starts

and then the music all fades out

and it's just you and me

it may be the jack talking but all i see is you and me

I'll play something pretty

and hope you see only me

and I'll sing anything you want me to

if you'll just smile the way you do

and I'm sure there's a key I could sing in just to win your heart

so I'll play all your favorites, just play your part

smile like you do you've already won my heart

look me in the eyes again, here's where the fun starts

Well Someone has a potty mouth

I watch you smoke those cigarettes

and drink down your pink drinks

and the way your lips move

just makes the heartache sink away

well I'll m, m, meet you in the bedroom

and sh, shake through the taste of you

well I'll meet you in the bedroom...

well I saw those pink drinks get the best of you

mixed drinks made by the best around you

it's almost like watching an angel

and i can't wait for when you fall

becausewell I'll m, m, meet you in the bedroom

a whole night just to taste of you

well I'll meet you in the bedroom 

for a whole night of you

so turn around again, I've got this, I've got you

spin around again, in my hands and mind it's all you

flip your hair again, because all i want is you

and we're all lying just to be the best

but we're trying not to look like we're the best

we've got hearts on our sleeves

broken, tattered like the bedsheets

and we're staring down, staring down, staring down...

because if home is where the heart is 

then I want mine back

if home is where the heart is 

please pick up the slack

because we're all lying just to be the best

and trying just to pass this test

and if i do I'll meet you in the bedroom

breathe in the sweet taste of you

and I'll meet you in the bedroom in you

too infinity

I've got all this ringing in my ears

and it's all I'll ever hear

I'm not even sure

what my voice sounds like anymore

now recordings of me are singing you to sleep

now lay close to blankets and sheets,

dream of gentle things, I hope you dream of me

I've got self esteem to match your low cut jeans,

and memories that seem to sting with words I'd hoped you'd say

but in your eyes...

I've got lullabies for days, 

al the things that I'll never say

and scarred hands that only make chords and notes

because I can't hold you close

so dream of gentle things, I hope you dream of me

I've got self esteem to match your low cut jeans

and memories that seem to sting with words I'd hoped you'd say,

but in your eyes...

And I told you most but kept the rest inside,

but in your eyes all i see is summertime

all the things that I won't ever say seem to melt away in your eyes

and I've got self esteem to match your low cut jeans,

and rhythms to match your idioms

a guitar to sing you to sleep,

wherever you are

So dream of gentle things, I hope you dream of me

lay in blankets and sheets, I hope you pretend they're me

recordings of me are singing you to sleep

so dream of gentle things, well I hope you dream of me

Here's another letter with your name on it

All these words don't mean anything, 

and all the phrases I've nurtured amount to nothing

just some wasted time, wasted space,

wasted strings and calluses until I see your face

I said I was lying when I called you my cure

well if you want to know the truth I was lying there, for sure...

Now I'm lying on the couch and you're lying too, 

how much more of this can we take?

It's just a test to see what's inside me, 

until I can see inside you

Well I sure wasn't lying when I called you my cure

and if you want to know the truth I'm lying on the floor to hear from you

So just take me out, take me anywhere

away from here

knock me out, quick one two

from no one else but you

why is it that all my words come back to you?

All the sad words don't mean anything

and all the sad phrases I've nurtured amount to nothing

it's just amazing times, valued space

I'll break all the strings and calluses to see your face

because all the happy things come back to you

Wearing my heart on my record sleeve

well this hangover is just about as bad as it gets

and from where i'm sitting i got nothing that fits

i'd like to throw on these old shoes, walk around the block

converse with my converse

have a 27 and watch the sidewalk chalk

but then again...

all i wanted was to see you smile

but i saw through your teeth, like a child,

"that's sweet but," just stop there

everything you want to say will just cloud the air

well this hangover stings worse than you

too bad its' temporary because i'll just go back to you

back to all the things that i wish you would say

all the things i'll never ever hear your voice say

I guess  that's ok, I'll have to understand

Now I just don't get to hold your hand, talk about life

tell you how i feel and give in to all the strife

but then again...

all i wanted was to see you smile

but i saw through your teeth, like a child,

"that's sweet but," just stop there

everything you want to say will just cloud the air

and i know i have my problems

i don't sleep, wear my heart on my (record) sleeve

everything i told you was true but not the half of it

i wrote you a song once before, you know

talking about how you were my only cure

i guess that makes me a liar, too

but then again...

all i wanted was to see you smile

but i saw through your teeth, like a child,

"that's sweet but," just stop there

everything you want to say will just cloud the air

Will you go out with me?

Alright, I'll admit. this song is just dripping with... cheesy, hopeless romanticism. But you know what, it's a good change to the violent depressing stuff. So, there ya go. 

Alright, here's the plan

it involves me, you, and a coffee stand

I'll meet you after work 

with your favorite drink in hand

And I'll sing you a cheesy song

if you'll close your eyes, rest your head, lend me your hand

i know you never knew what my plan is,

and even if you did you still put up with my shit

well, I have something I'd like to ask you...

alright, here's the deal

I need you near me to make me feel real

ever since Dinapoli's all you've done is steal

steal my mind, my heart and feelings

and trust me, this only gets cheesier

I hope you never knew what my plan was,

but even if you did you still put up with all my suck.

well, I have something I'd like to ask you,

just look at your coffee cup

I can't move, blush, make a smile

Don't you wish you could be the rain?

Falling, how you feel, washing away your pain?

Did they ever tell you you were their rain?

The on thing that could leave them of all their pain?

Let their fever break out in your head

let their glare break your exterior

let their words grab you against what you said

Is he what you wanted?

nothing more than a whore dressed in boy's clothing

well I see right through, right through him and you

he'll give you the world dipped in deceit and lies

but if he's what you wanted

well I make this sound

this sound of drowns and nouns

twisting around my devotion

twisting around my feelings for you

this isn't what I wanted

faith misplaced is devotion ignored

drown and start to breath

Is he what you wanted?

nothing more than a whore dressed in boy's clothing

well I see right through, right through him and you

he'll give you the world dipped in deceit and lies

but if he's what you wanted

you feel that twisting, falling, tearing down?

you hear that screaming, moaning, drowning out?

well, if he's what you wanted.

you feel that twisting, falling, tearing down?

you hear that screaming, moaning, drowning out?

well, if that's what you wanted then don't call me back.

I'll hold you, hide you, protect your feathered down

you're this sweetness in a world so bitter

you're becoming bitter now

well if that's what you wanted then don't call me back.

desperate disasters, casual pastors

and she said, she had a good time

a great night, somehow this just felt right,

I said we should do it again

and she said for sure, friend, for sure, for sure

is this what i wanted all along?

because they sit in my head and sing

and you're so tired of life, boy

time to look in the mirror 

don't you dare play coy

this will make your head clearer

this has all gone wrong, I said

somewhere along the lines I missed what she meant

now I'm waiting by the phone like in every other song

what happened to the good moods and all the disappearing wrongs?

is this what i wanted all along?

because they sit in my head and sing

and you're so tired of life, boy

time to look in the mirror 

don't you dare play coy

this will make your head clearer

just give up again

it's all you'll ever do

it's all you, it's all you'll

ever amount to

because you're just some skin and bones, now walk

you used to be alive,

and you were raised to be dead

I've seen this once before

I'm really not so sure,

but I've seen this once before

I've seen this once before

and you're so tired of life, boy

time to look in the mirror 

don't you dare play coy

this will make your head clearer

Well, I'm free tomorrow...

it's in the way you sway those hips,

it's in the way you move your lips,

it's in the way your body sits,

these are the parts that tell me to persist

so say those words just one more time

"surre" with two r's let me know you're mine for tonight

close your eyes, baby, you've got a surprise

take my hand, baby, trust me and I've got you tonight

it's in the way you sway those hips,

it's in the way you move your lips,

it's in the way your body sits,

these are the parts that tell me to persist

take me home with you, make me yours

whatever you need for me to do

Just say the words and I'll be there

making sure what's yours stays yours

it's in the way you swing those hips,

it's in the breath i taste on your lips,

it's in the way your body sits,

these are the parts that tell me why i exist

tell me stories, tell me lies

tell me anything to make me feel alive

tell me tales, make me ties,

give me anything to feel alive

About Today

Keep your hands on the wheel,

shake off a little fear,

everything good today has come from you, dear

I didn't mind if you smoked, but you'll ask anyway, I mean,

this whole week of fear and despair rises in breaths and leave in drags

well we could stay in bed all day,

if you'd just stay with me

I'll make sure you're safe and warm with

your arms wrapped around me

I may not be smooth but I think I'm good for you

Let go of the wheel, just this once,

throw it in park and forget the world

Fall with me into the stars,

into the nights, the clouds, the bars

just fall with me, stay with me tonight

because we could stay in bed all day, 

if you'd just stay with me

I'll make sure you're safe and warm

with your arms wrapped around me

I may not be smooth but I think I'm good for you

well have I ever told you, all the things you do to me?

have I ever gave you, all the fear you place in me?

and have i ever told you, all the things you do to me?

and have i ever gave you a heart to swear to me you'd keep?

well have i ever told you? said have i ever told you?

well have i ever told you? have i ever told you?

fall with me into the stars 

(have i ever told you?)

into the nights, the  clouds, the bars

(have i ever told you?)

throw it in park

(have i ever told you?)

forget the world

I'll start to worry when I'm dead

"come on out of your cave and into the city, i said, a come on, out of your cave, and oh, into the city..."


so maybe I could use blogger for actually posting blogs and not just lyrics/poems. eh, worth a shot.

I guess trying new things can be fun. Sure, most people would be all "well duh dickass," but I used to be the kind of person who wouldn't try new things and just kinda stuck to my own thing. Last night alone I tried a bunch of new things and I'm so happy that I did. It was ana amazing night and there's nothing else to it. btw, calamari = pretty tasty.

so, here's the point. if you read this, I'm counting it as a nonverbal contract, and by you reading the previous phrase "nonverbal contract" you're agreeing to it.

Go out today and do something new. Something you've always wanted to do and just never did. I'm going to. I'm nervous as hell. And if you are, too, find someone special to do it with. This is also what I'm doing. I'm scared but excited for it too. But I know being with someone helps out. I mean, come on, I tried calamari and liked it.

hey, this is a contract, you agreed, go do it.

My heart tried to explode (in a good way)

you walked in the room
i was still outside and my heart skipped out of tune
you made your rounds, hugs to everyone
ray of sunshine in this dark cold night

i'll admit, I almost dropped my cigarette
well tonights no different than any other night,
same good friends, same good time
how do you do this to me?

all the nicotine isn't helping my breathing
but the real reason is you sitting here
have i told you have pretty eyes? (no, that's dumb)
did i mention i dig your styel? (no, that's dumb)

i'll admit, i almost dropped my cigarette
well tonight's no different than any other night
same good friends, same good time
how do you do this to me?

is it so much to ask that you don't mess with my breathing?
you already have my heart ready to explode
although I think it's amazing that you're sitting right here
maybe i'll work up the nerve to talk
maybe i'll say something clever, sweep you off your feet?
casanova's got nothing on me, i think,
as i ask you to dinner instead

Blend No. 27

do you ever think of me?
all this smoke, these cigarettes,
do you even think of me?
if not could you let me fade to obscurity?
but if so could you just....please... tell me?

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd just about die

well hey thanks for coming to my show
did you know one of those songs i played for you?
i'm cheesy but you, you're soft and only,
and baby you, you're lost and loney,
and only you, well you're just like heaven
and it'll be worth going to prison
if that got a smile out of you

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd swear to be alive

i'd swear i wasn't going anywhere
but i'm not giving up on you
so i'll pretend i'm winning you over
if you won't give up either

do you ever think of me?
all this smoke, these cigarettes?
do you even think of me?

do you ever think of me?
have another 27, sweetie,
do you even think of me?

I brought you coffee at work

to say everything i never could

at least you thought it was sweet, and I'm a dork,

but I just knew what you'd say, you would

i just can't stand to say goodbye, babe

and everything i'd ever say you already heard

what else could i do to make you stay?

besides pretty songs and compliments?

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd swear to be alive

have another 27, sweetie, do you ever think of me?

"I'm fucked up in stereo"

what's the point in living when living's lost it's love?
what's the point in loving when loving's lost it's life?

all at once the music stopped,
you stepped into the room.
everybody saw and dropped
you're a walking breathing time bomb
just waiting to go off...

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and it shouldn't be harder than this

all at once the record skipped,
you messed us up again (dammit girl)
come on out of your cave and into the light
and you fucked up the beat again

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and just let her slip away

well i know
i'm falling into the radio
they always play a slow song
and it's fucking me up in stereo
so here's your life
in black and white
i wrote it out for you
made sure details were covered
only you could know
so listen to the radio
listen to my songs
tell your friends they're about you
before i sing all your wrongs

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and it's all you know exists

Pretend this isn't about you.

well i hope you regret
everything you said
and if i'm lucky you'll live to see the day the day I wed
cry yourself to sleep
in your broken bed,
let her wake you up, she'd rather see you instead...

i'm done with being alone
and I'm doin with you being gone
it was sweet to be wrapped around your finger
oh the things i've seen only make this sweeter

all the skin i lost on you
only grew back stronger
strong enough to resist your touch
and your lying laughter

if you made the wrong decision,
why don't you try and fix it?
oh, that's right, i forgot, you're just scared to prove it
but don't think i'll forget
all the things you told me
you always said you loved me so
I'll believe it if i see....

i'm done with being alone
and I'm doin with you being gone
it was sweet to be wrapped around your finger
oh the things i've seen only make this sweeter

you must not <3 me

she said she hurts the nice guys,
and maybe she was right
she she loved him more, and I think that's alright,

because as long as you're smiling, babe, I'm smiling too.
as long as you're smiling babe, well I'm smiling too.

I'll construct my songs
so you can deconstruct my thoughts
they're still yours the way there were when you taught me

that as long as I'm smiling, babe, you're smiling too.
and as long as I'm smiling, dear well you're smiling too.

tell me all the things you have,
girl you know i'll listen
and tell me all the things you keep,
girl you know i'll keep them

She said stay positive, and I think she was right
she said it'll work out then and I think she was right,

because if you're smiling, babe, then I'm smiling too
and I know if you're smiling, then I'm smiling too

in no time, there'll be one less boy
singing sogns because he's lonely
he knows she doesn't love him
but she taught him more than any lover ever could
and he knows that she loves him in a way
that no other ever could

This song is for a beautiful girl

i'd like to ask yuou a favor, dear,
one I don't know if you can do
you see you've got my breath trappd again
and I need it to talk to you
You steal it everytimes I hear your voice
and you don't ever give it back

well here's the plan, I'll fly you to the stars
We'll swim in the big dipper
and we'll camp somewhere on mars
if you promise, if you swear
that you'll be mine

I threw you up into the sky once before
and you fell into my arms again
so baby, we'll try this once more

because I'm driving too fast on this old desert highway
driving to see your face, hear your voice against
the sounds of the new freeway

so here's the plan, I'll fly you to spain
ad we'll watch the lovers dance
we'll own the hotel until the day that we go back
if you promise, if you'll swear
that you'll be mine

you said, "well come see me,
let me see what I've been missing."
I'll stay anywhere you want to be
and show you what you've been missing
Let me take you by the hand,
ask you what's in your big plans
then i'll tell you mine
since they're all in your hands

And I'll say "here's the plan
we'll drive until there's no more roads
we'll see the ocean span the world
and we'll lay low, or way up high
as long as you promise, if you swear that you'll be mine"

Right after I wrote this, she said she didn't love me

well this is all new territory

for me

you've got this hold,

this grip on me

your eyes are full of metaphors that I can't even comprehend

so I got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

and I got nothing on this on this on this

you make me rhyme

in ways I can't remember

you've had this hold on me 

ever since september

so I'll just close my eyes

remember times

close my eyes

remember times

so i got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

so I got nothing on this

and I got nothing on you

if I could make this last forever

this one night, with no fights

and the clouds are trying to rain

if I could make this last forever

this one night, the dark skies

and you're shielding me from all the pain

so i got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

so I got nothing on this

and I got nothing on you

I'm done with your shit

i thought you'd be done with this by now

but I guess you'd rather play some more

but I'm done with this, baby, I'm done with you

because I can't play your games anymore

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

i've never felt so used

as when you lean on my shoulder

like I'm the only thing you need

what you used to need

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

get away from, get away from me

I can't breathe your poison breath,

can't kiss your poison lips

so get away from, get away from me

I can't see your evil eyes

and I can't taste your evil lies

get away from, get away from me

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

This is probably the last song about you

I called you up, said I missed you like hell.

You replied, that's great but well,

he'll be home soon.

I said I hope he's better and

you stopped, you paused, you stopped.

Well I hope you're happy now,

because this is the last song.

This is the last song.

I called you up, said let's get some lunch.

You replied, boy I miss your touch

I miss your kiss.

I guess he wasn't better

because you stopped, you thought, you stopped.

Now you're crying on my shoulder

in your own little world

Now you've crashed on the shoulder

tiny white nails in your world

So savor this song, 

savor my voice,

savor your choice,

cause this is the last song.

Cause this is the last song.

And I hope you're happy now

cause this is the last song

this is the last one about you

this is the last song

Short lived like your love

cause this is the last song

Dark and slow like it's your own

so this is the last song

this is the last song.