I love you so much that it hurts my head

Hold The Water Ransom (BP)

2010-10-06T15:07:00.000-07:00

They said what they wanted you to believe
Its hard to believe the words against what you see
Take a picture in black and white
And add some color against the waves
we're bound to come around again
They're bound to come around...

They're throwing punches at ocean waves
The earth shook, the earth shook
I've never seen a lie surf that way
And no one can stay afloat today

When are you supposed to wake up?
All your pockets full of answers
prescriptions for questions
Never make the mark you want to
When will this sinking feeling leave us?
Its Eating us like cancer
Because we never learned the lessons
Never make the mark you want to
Make up the stories we'll all tell to our children

And its raining gasoline
On cigarettes and dreams
Tip your glass to the sea
Watch it burn the night away

untitled as of now

2010-10-06T15:06:00.003-07:00

I've been drinking and drinking and drinking gasoline
Now I'm waiting and waiting for you to ignite me
I'll burn for you through your nights sleep
Just don't forget to fill me with kerosene
Because the bad feels so good
And the bad feels good to me
The bad just feels, well it just feels
So good, so good, oh hahaha

Do you remember the last time we spoke?
Take you down to the waters edge
But I can't make you drink, oh no
Do I remember the last time she wrote?
Took the blade down to the finest edge
No but I can't make you, no I can't make you

Because the bad feels so good
And the bad feels good to me
The bad just feels, well it just feels
So good, so good, oh hahaha

You mistook me for someone who cared
Now your words are falling on deaf ears
I've seen enough to know when to love
And I've seen enough of you to know you should give up

Mend Able

2010-10-06T15:06:00.001-07:00

You sing the words I'll play the chords
I thought that was the plan
You played it true to form
Now you're torn and I can't stand it
you're throwing stones in a glass home
And I can't stand it

I'm a liar, I'm a liar
I'm a liar, but I learned
All my best tricks from you
Is that what you wanted to hear?
Cuz that's what you wanted to hear

Now you're throwing stones
I hope its biblical
There's no honor between brothers and thieves
There's no honor between the knives in your sleeves
Now You're putting out this fire with gasoline
But don't mind me I'm stoking the flame

I'm a liar, I'm a liar
I'm a liar, but I learned
All my best tricks from you
Is that what you wanted to hear?
Cuz that's what you wanted to hear

How About You Control?

2010-10-06T15:05:00.003-07:00

I never tried it but I'm keeping up
I never tried it but I'm always up

Well your shoulder was cold
(and you were throwing stones)
I'm catching sparks and sand
(can you even see from your end?)
We're all freezing from the east
And you're catching up on sleep

Well you never tried it but I'm keeping up
You never tried it but you're always up

We're pushing twenty five at the end
And its thirty two on the skin
We hope you're warm up top
When you turn the radio off
When you turn the radio off
Turn the radio off, turn the radio off

Well you never tried it but I'm keeping up
You never tried it but you're always up

Well how about you control?
How about you control?
How about you control?
And how about you control?

The Tragedy (pt 2)

2010-10-06T15:05:00.001-07:00

Well this is what living like this does
Weren't you taught better than this?
I hope you keep drinking gasoline
I'll sit on this stage and light you on fire
Did you tell your daughter you're the best of liars?

Were there wedding bells when you said I do?
Did you notice she was looking straight through you?

Get out the cross, here comes the martyr
Bleeding from his ears for the screams of his daughter
She has the same name, oh, she has the same name
The children always pay for the sins of the father

Were there wedding bells when you said I do?
Hope you feel good that you had her fooled

So look out you son of a bitch
Why don't you keep talking shit?
Cuz snitches and talkers
Get stitches and walkers
Now we know which bullet fits
You've already shot yourself to pieces,

I just want to tear straight into you
I just want to slit your throat the way you do
Would it break your heart, tell her the truth?
(the truth, the whole truth and nothing but...)
Because I just wanna tear straight into you

I just wanna tear straight into you
I just wanna tear straight into you

The Tragedy (pt 1)

2010-10-06T15:04:00.001-07:00

She sits on the porch and smokes camel wides
Oh, and all the things that lead her to this life
He hasn't said he loves her in months
But she knows exactly why

Were there wedding bells when you said I do?
Could you even tell if he was looking at you?

She sits on the couch and watches their daughter play
she can't even begin to guess what he'll say
Because he hasn't said he loves her in months
She says "if I believed in God I'd pray"

She sits on the porch and smokes camel wides
The ash burns her skin and the tears douse the fire
The truth, the while truth and nothing but?
"how can you trade in your children for a far away love?
How can you tell your daughter she never mattered?
How can you trade in your children?"

Brittany's song

2010-10-06T15:03:00.000-07:00

Smoke from the last cigarette sits
Cold like stone and colorless
You're sleeping like the peace you keep
I'm sinking like a stone in the sea
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over and over and over

But when you wake, the color comes alive
The silver smoke turns gold with light from your eyes
Green like the grass, bright as the sun
Deep like the space you don't believe exists

I had prayers that need no answer
Now, let it turn to ashes, blow it out
you're waking like the sun in the morning,
I've finally found a reason to sing again
You put a stop to these thoughts in my head
Over and over and over and over

And when you wake, the color comes alive
The silver smoke turns gold with light from your eyes
Green like the grass, bright as the sun
Deep like the space you don't believe exists

We watched orion dance across the sky
It doesn't have to be warm to pretend its summertime
We watched satellites streak across the night
It doesn't have to be cold to hold you tight

And when you wake, the color comes alive
The silver smoke turns gold with light from your eyes
Green like the grass, bright as the sun
Deep like the space you don't believe exists

Cannon To A Whisper

2009-12-04T11:08:00.000-08:00

from a cannon to a whisper,
he whispered "maybe i'll disappear"
play you songs from the road
with all these lyrics i stole
from torn up record sleeves
and all these secrets you don't keep

well you're so delicate, i became a machine
you're so delicate, i became a machine
you're so delicate, i became a machine
you're so delicate, i am, i am a machine

well it went from a cannon to a whisper
from a lover to a kisser
and you thought you were one step closer
but you've never been farther away
and i only wanted an answer
so whisper, whisper, whisper

well you're so delicate, i became a machine
you're so delicate, i became a machine
you're so delicate, i became a machine
you're so delicate, i am, i am a machine

we're all killers just like you
(cannon to a whisper)
we're all dying just like you
(take apart the words)
we're all killers just like you
(cannon to a whisper)
we're all dying just like you
(take apart the words)
we're starting fires just like you
(cannon to a whisper)
we're just as lost as you

we're gonna die like this you know,
rusted, faded and old
say i'd disappear, say i'd disappear,
say i won't, say i won't, say i won't
(are you sure? are you sure? are you sure?)
we're gonna die like this you know,
rusted, faded and old
say i'd disappear, say i'd disappear,s
ay i won't, say i won't, say i won't
(are you sure? are you sure? are you sure?)

You'd Be In Good Shape If You Ran Like Your Mouth Does

2009-11-29T21:55:00.000-08:00

lie to all your friends say everything is alright
let them sing you sad songs in the night
did your lover ever tell you his plight?
because i saw you shrug him off your shoulders
couldn't roll over when he laid down for the night

did your lungs ever tire of the poison?
you're changing colors with the season
i never said i didn't believe
but i've got no faith in you and me

pull down all the trees
burn down all these clouds
tell your God what you thought you knew about
just say what you think you believe
i won't listen, tell you what you'll never see
tell them all what you thought you knew about me

did your lungs ever tire of poison?
because you're full of everything but reason
i never said i didn't believe
but i've got no faith in you or me

we're all dead, pull down all the trees
everything's said, burn down the clouds
breathe in, breathe in, breathe in

lie to everyone that you know
(go ahead and pick up the knife)
i hope my name tastes good on your tongue
i'd like to see what you're made of)
i hope it burns like your liquor
(go ahead and pick up the knife)
hope it gets you angry faster
(i'd like to see what you're made of)
i hope it pulls the ground from your feet

lie to everyone that you know
(go ahead and pick up the knife)
i hope my name tastes good on your tongue
i'd like to see what you're made of)
i hope it burns like your liquor
(go ahead and pick up the knife)
hope it gets you angry faster
(i'd like to see what you're made of)
i hope it pulls the ground from your feet

The Faith You've Found I've Never Felt

2009-08-13T17:53:00.000-07:00

we all said your prayers
whether you wanted us to or not
the preacher man led the songs
and the choir sang them all from heart
like we knew them all from heart
the curtain's closing, but you're not really leaving,
you can't, the sun can set but...

could i sell this procession for one last kiss?
could i leave this reception and see you again?

the funeral procession happened on a sunny day
the kind you used to love
the sun tried, and finally
fought past the clouds

the preacher man said don't,
don't come visit you
because you're not,
not staying here
but it's so hard to drive past and, and, and
and try not to ask

could i sell this feeling for one last kiss?
could i leave this stone and see you again?

so picture me devoid of energy, and all this broken heart
and i keep hearing it might come if i need it
the preacher man wants me to believe it
but this always seemed the one thing we can't avoid

we've got all these broken melodies and children lost for words
and i keep hearing it might come if i need it
the preacher man wants me to believe it
but this always seemed the one thing i can't avoid

but now the choir's staying quiet,
i think the preacher man is tired
does this city ever sleep?
cause i don't, and i don't, and i don't
and i know i can't but...

could i sell this procession for one last kiss?
could i leave this reception and see you again?
could i sell this feeling for one last kiss?
could i leave this stone and see you again?

photographs make you look good

2009-07-09T15:04:00.000-07:00

i wish you could see your face when i tell you
it's just another thing wasted on you

remember when you had potential?
remember when the sun shone for you?
remember when it weasn't something you coudln't handle?
remember when i used to love you too?

you were teh stars in the sky,
shining bright,
lighting my way back home
but time's been cruel
now you're dim and dull,
and nothing more is coming from you

remember when you first told me?
remember when it wasn't mine?
remember how you hoped it looked like me?
remember the remorse in your eyes
the day that part of you died?

it's been years and years and years
and you only come back here when your ears need to be filled
beacuse all he can do is drain all the fluids from you
and you can't blame a firl for sticking to...
can't blame a girl for sticking to what she knows

and oh, what's she know? and oh, what's she know?

the secret

2009-07-02T13:30:00.000-07:00

it's that time of year again,
where we see eachother's eyes and pretend
we're gonna fly away, just you and me
grab your things because your feet are leaving the ground

and i'm thinking of the things we could be
just so long as we don't float too far away
thinking of you holding on to me
the way i've always held the things you'd say
can you see me at all?
can you see me at all?

if i try hard enough i can see
the way you smile when you're waving at me
holding out your hand to erase this ghost town
i swear i'll never, never let you down

and i'm thinking of the things we could be
just so long as we don't float too far away
thinking of you holding on to me
the way i've always held the things you'd say
can you see me at all?
can you see me at all?

I'll fly you to the stars
We'll swim in the big dipper and we'll camp somewhere on mars
if you promise, if you swear that you'll be mine
i'll dive into the sky with you
we'll swim in ursa major and watch the stars fly by
we'll fly to black holes and you'll
paint them blue with your eyes

I'll fly you anywhere you want to be and
show you what you've been missing
Let me take you by the hand,
ask you what's in your big plans
then i'll tell you mine
they're all in your hands

OK, happy

2009-06-30T10:13:00.000-07:00

By this time tomorrow i'll be a headline at best,
she said break a leg and i said i'll break all the rest
you're just vain enough to think this song's about you
when i know you're just like every other girl
one, your name's not in my head, and
two, she pulls off what you pretend to

did they ever tell you your beauty puts the angels to shame?
i couldn't tell you to your face because your eyes are just too blinding
but rest assured, i've loved you since your gaze graced this sad shaking form
will you ever know? Will you ever know?

well i'm not going to stop this, whether you like it or not
this is so difficult for the both of us
i know we tried so hard, it seems like there's no hope for us,
just look across the table
just look on the stage

just look at you, sitting in that plastic chair.
just keep rocking, shake all the evil out
just look at you, and your glowing auburn hair
just keep talking, get all the evil out

well i'm not going to stop this, whether you like it or not
this is so difficult for the both of us
i know we tried so hard, it seems like there's no hope for us,
just look across the table (it's all in my head)
just look on the stage (it's just a mess)
just look across the table (it's all in my head)
just look on the stage (it's just a mess)

i wasn't prepared for this

2009-06-28T02:20:00.000-07:00

we're just boys singing at microphones
stealing lines from record sleeves
and wishing on your hipbones

and if this isn't a cry for help,
then i couldn't tell you what is
but you've got me wrapped around your finger
and i'm never prepared for this...

now i'm in stitches because of you
(can you feel it slipping through your fingers?)
all you ever, ever do
(life's just away a breath away)
is find new ways to rip me in two
(if you give in to these sinners)
just to break in two

we're just kids breaking hearts and bones
because it's all we ever learned
contradictions will always leave you alone

so please teach me something new
because i can't keep falling apart over you
but you've got me wrapped around your finger
and i'm never prepared for this

now i'm in stitches because of you
(can you feel it slipping through your fingers?)
all you ever, ever do
(life's just away a breath away)
is find new ways to rip me in two
(if you give in to these sinners)
just to break in two

and i'm better at this
than slitting wrists
but i never said i was above it
if my voice is your nicotine
don't you wish you could breathe me in?

and i'm better at this than slitting wrists
but i never said i was above it
and if my voice is your nicotine
i bet you wish you could breathe me in

now i'm in stitches because of you
(we're just boys singing at microphones)
all you ever, ever do
(stealing lines from record sleeves)
is find new ways to rip me in two
(and wishing on your hipbones)
just to break in two

and i already told you, i'm never prepared for this

2009-06-22T15:18:00.001-07:00

you are the prescription i could never fill,
the only thing i could never fix with a pill
i'll crawl back to you,
eat scraps from your table like the mutt i am
eat scraps from your bed like the mutt i am

i am the fly on the wall
annoyance you could never kill
so come gliding back to me like teh angel you are
like the angel you are

and it was so sweet wrapped around your little finger
and every little thing you did only made it sweeter
now every road leads to your place, and ever mirror reflects your face
and i jsut can't keep my mind off of you

so you're the fire in my heart,
i'll be the smoke in your lungs
we're both addicted to the words i always sung
you're teh music in these broken bones
but i'm just the smoke in your lungs
we're both addicted like the words i always said... to you
and only you, and only you, it was only you, only you

so turn around again, in my heart and in my hands, i've got this and i've got you
so flip your hair again, in my heart and in my hands i've got this, i've got you

you're always saying never

2009-06-10T12:51:00.000-07:00

that's an awful pretty mouth babe
but you better shut it or you'll be to blame, again
now let me in, let me in, let me in
do you even remember?
then what's my name? what's my name?

hope the drugs felt good, hope the sex was better
hope you're always, always saying never
but tell me something, dear, tell me
just what exactly what were you thinking?

i just c-c-c-c-can't decide
what we're gonna do with you
and oh, i just can't decide
what we're gonna tell them happened to you

hope the drugs felt good, hope the sex was better
hope you're always, always saying never
but tell me something, dear, tell me
just what exactly what were you thinking?

fingerprints match the .45
bullets match the holes in my side
you had to motive, you had the incentive
you had the reasons, seasons just right
too bad you're just as bad a shot
as you are at keeping promises

hope the drugs felt good, hope the sex was better
hope you're always, always saying never
but tell me something, dear, tell me
just what exactly what were you thinking?
did you think you'd get away
that you'd ever see the sun again?
did you think you'd get away?
that you'd ever see...

hope the drugs felt good, hope the sex was better
hope you're always, always saying never
but tell me something, dear, tell me
just what exactly what were you thinking?
did you think you'd get away
that you'd ever see the sun again?
did you think you'd get away?
that you'd ever see...

i'm not addicted, i just don't wanna stop (blur)

2009-05-22T11:41:00.000-07:00

well i couldn't stop the burning in my ear
when you told me exactly what i wanted to hear
louder, louder with my mic wrapped round your wrist
(they're just lies, they're just lies)
breathe in and out, come down, come down
breathe in and out, come down, come down

it's all such a blur to her to her to her
and it's all such a blur to this girl
and she just needs some attention
and she just wants some affection
and she just needs some direction
she could use in anything

i've often wondered if my teeth would fit
in those tracks marks stitched in your skin
if they did would you shoot me up?
(she's just a liar, just a liar)
breathe in and out, come down, come down
breathe in and out, come down, come down

it's all such a blur to her to her to her
and it's all such a blur to this girl
and she can't fight this infection
and she's bruised from these injections
and she's left with these inflections
she could use in anything

whisper all your secrets in my microphone
will it keep them? will it keep them?
whisper all your secrets in my microphone
will it keep them? would i keep them?
could you keep them?

whisper all your secrets in your permanent ink
the one that reminds you of me
breathe in more smoke like your lungs are fresh and unsold
collect more needles like a more a reminder of the color you sold

sickly, not sober, quickly, before we see her
sickly, not sober, quickly, before we see her
you got us good, you got us good,
serious like a heart attack
you got us good, you got us good,
sharpened blade right through the back
you got us good, you got us good,
serious like a heart attack
you got us good, you got us good,
but we're getting, getting you back

cuz all your ex best friends say intervention,
all your ex best friends say intervention,
all your ex best friends say intervention,
all your ex best friends say...

oh, you didn't know? (Summer song)

2009-05-19T13:09:00.000-07:00

you can say everything you want to,
it won't change a thing
(I'd rather see you win this one)
I'm waiting on those summer rains,
lightning under sunshine
(I'd rather see you win this one)
and you can't change a thing

well let the summer rain wash down on me,
i'll let you wash down on me too
let the summer rain sweep me away all the ways i want you to

well now tell me that you changed for the better
and I'd rather see you win this one
you'll never forget how bad things were
before the weather
I'd rather see you win this one
but you'd rather just forget

well let the summer rain wash down on me,
i'll let you wash down on me too
let the summer rain sweep me away all the ways i want you to

and we've got nothing on these summer storms,
we'll just lay out on the floor
leave the cooler on and listen to the doors
we can melt together, melt together
melt together in the summer storms

i'd rather see you win this one
but you win every time
and i'd rather see you win this one
but you win every time
well let the summer rain wash down on me,
i'll let you wash down on me too
let the summer rain sweep me away all the ways i want you to

bruised or not, you're still cute

2009-05-15T12:29:00.000-07:00

we got buzzed the last night we really talked
we made love under stars and everywhere we'd walked
i couldn't think of any other way to say goodbye so i kissed you on the mouth
if i'd have known you'd die that night i would have said everything else

i remember so much life in you
i remember so much breath in you
i remember holding hands with you
when we talked of what we'd do

i thought i'd write you a letter, like i used to
like i saved you, before,
but you wouldn't read it now
instead i'll just sit here, like we used to
as if we could ever save you, before
it's all so stupid on paper
it's fucked up, i fucked up, you fucked up,
but i thought you should know i still mean it when i say
i love you

i remember so much life in you
i remember so much breath in you
i remember holding hands with you
when we talked of what we'd do

we'll have to, we'll have to, we'll have to, i should do.
i want to, i want you, i miss you, we should do...
well without you, without you, without you, i would do...
without you, without you, without you, i could do
you always knew, you always knew, we always do, what we shouldn't do
i'd like to, just tell you, but you're too..... far

remember when we used to dance on the stars?
we'd spend the night on mars?
now you're just covered in scars
now i'm just covered in scars.
remember when we used to dance on the stars?
when we'd spend the night on mars?
now you're just covered in scars
now i'm just covered in scars

part 4: last words

2009-05-06T10:45:00.001-07:00

we thought we made it through, we thought we had a chance
we sounded so commanding and without a second glance
we dreamed of this endearing like your last slow dance
but no we're pinned against the wall as bullets fill the air
this was the perfect plan, i said,
this was the perfect-

i stole all your inspiration
and made sure your heart was broken
just because you were right all along
just because i keep writing you songs

we won't hold out much longer
i hope he makes you happy
and i hope this still hurts
but no matter what happens to me
you'll always be in my last words

i stole all your inspiration
and made sure your heart was broken
just because you were right all along
just because i keep writing you songs

the bullets hit the windows first and brought them crashing to the ground
the same way your feet used to hit the ground running back to
footsteps and screams are background melody for the symphony
that is our demise

nobody moves, nobody get any smart ideas
this is your first night here so you've gotta pray
a chorus of shots ring out in the night
nobody moves, nobody make a scene
we'll break you down, burn who you love, shoot you now
i think it's safe to say we're losing this fight
nobody moves, nobody be a hero today
all we're gonna do is make you lonely lonely lonely

i hope this still hurts, but you'll always be my last words
(this was the perfect plan, i said, this was the perfect-)
i hope this still hurts, but you'll always be my last words
(this was the perfect plan, i said, this was the perfect-)
i hope this still hurts, but you'll always be my last words
(this was the perfect plan, i said, this was the perfect-)

part 3: getaways

2009-05-06T10:33:00.000-07:00

drive, drive drive and get alone
all you want to be is lonely lonely lonely

you played your part,
every word thrown like a star through my heart
"well at least i taught you to aim well enough," I said,
"at least i know a conviction you've never felt," she said,
it was enough to fool you and bring you to your knees
and break you down, burn who you love, shoot you down

so drive, drive drive and get alone
(sirens and gunshots in rearviews)
all i wanna do is get you lonely lonely lonely
(spike strips in your heels you'll never feel anything again)

we pulled this off and you said we never would
we called all your bluffs because you always said we couldn't
well it's your first night here so you've gotta play
pick up the revolver and pray
she's not a prize but she'll show you
slight (break you down)
of (burn who you love)
hand (shoot you dead)

could you make this jump if i promised i'd catch you?
would you leap to my arms or run like you always do?
(we'll take aim and never feel anything again)
could you make this jump if i promised i'd catch you?
would you leap to my arms or run like you always do?
(we'll take aim and never feel anything again)

lorene drive has catchy songs, though.

2009-04-27T16:11:00.000-07:00

so maybe i was speeding and maybe you couldn't see
and maybe the only thing i was thinking was you and me
the way you fell asleep in my arms
they was i tried to keep you from harm

the way i didn't want to drop you off
this car is beg enough for the two of us
and that's what we'll call home

all iwanted was a kiss,
a way to seal the deal in our little tryst
all i wanted was your hand
steady you as you float off the grass
you just sang along to Lorene Drive
content just to be alone with me in your drive way

the way i didn't want to drop you off
this car is beg enough for the two of us
and that's what we'll call home

and i loved you. and i love you.
and you left without a word.
i'll siong to you through the static
the airwaves where you'll find me
i'll sing to you, feel my heartbeat in the stereo
i'll sing to you, feel our heartbeat in the stereo
listen to me on your drive home if you're ever feeling lonely or alone
just know i'll sing to you and feel you in the stereo

part 2: hostages

2009-04-27T16:03:00.000-07:00

noboy moves, nobody get any smart ideas
tooth by tooth i'll pull your smile apart with ease
nobody moves, nobody be a hero today
you'll make it home in time to see your daughter play
nobody moves, nobody has to die here today
i'll rob you blinder than you've ever been
and easily make my escape this day
but i'll keep you alive cause you're beautiful
and i'll need something to look at when i'm stealing your soul
the same way you stole mine

nobody moves, nobody call the cops
their sirens ring louder than the scream at the top of your lungs
they'll drown the news that i got away with every one of these songs
nobody moves, nobody try to talk me down
i'm floating on clouds where none of you can hurt me now
i'll keep you alive cause you're the cutest thing ever
but you're just a convenience now
someone to talk to when i'm behind bars in a jail cell
the same way you talked me through last time...

i've got nine reasons to say goodbye this time,
nine ways tot ell you how bad i hurt this time
and they're loaded in this gun.

one is how he told you he loved you
two is how you said it back
three is how you always said you loved me back
four is how i'm the first person you trust
five is he way i'm just a vessel for your lust
six is the way you fake your confidence
seven's the way you've left me bleeding nonchalance
eight is for eevr making me fall for you
nine is the way i'll make you...

nine is the way i'll make you fall too

if you could get her to stay past sunrise

2009-04-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

you're sneaking out my window,
i'm blowing smoke ring to try and catch your heart
it's only a quarter past four in the morning
"thanks for tonight, I'll meet you later on my porch"

I played you all my songs just right
just to keep you in my sight
just to make your body tight
but you're still leacing in the dead of night

and you're the least expensive, most addicting drug i've ever had
fell too hard for you but you just can't let this last
you said i hope you understand,
i said i need my fix and it's coming from your hands

i'm sneaking in your window,
you're lighting cigarettes for two
smiling as i'm climbing in and sinking into you
when we collide we're making one from two

shoot me up, breathe me in,
do whatever you have to to feel alive again
because i can't get enough of her pain
hurts so good like cigarette smoke on the brain

now she walks along, breaking necks like heart attacks
aiming for all the lonely suitor's backs
she's a killer if you let your dosage lapse
but she's every spark in every synapse

how to start a fire (better to have loved and lost than to wake up next to you ever day)

2009-04-22T15:27:00.000-07:00

under the covers, it was like a puzzle falling into place,
pieces of you attached to pieces of me and we're floating in space
watching stars explode with every kiss
and planets fall extinct with every "oh... miss..."

it's a long drive back, it's a long drive back
(stay up so i can bring you down)
and it's a long drive back, it's a long drive back
(stay wired so i can calm you down)
it's a long drive back, it's a long drive back
(stay tight so i can ring you out)
it's a long drive back...

under the blankets we shared all our secrets
"nothing can hurt us here" i said
too bad we're both just liars, and sinners
and i was just a vessel for your sixth
"so oh, go see him miss..."

it's a long drive back, it's a long drive back
(stay up so i can bring you down)
and it's a long drive back, it's a long drive back
(stay wired so i can calm you down)
it's a long drive back, it's a long drive back
(stay tight so i can ring you out)
it's a long drive back...

if our mouths were missles we'd be locked away
if our hands were razors we'd cut through our names
our bodies were weapons and we're designed
to bring this place down, cross all the lines
just to get to you, to you, to you
i hope this gets to you, to you, to you

stay up so i can bring you down
(dreams only last one night)
i just want to hold you down
(dreams only last one night)
stay up so i can bring you down
(dreams only last one night)
i just want to hold you down

i'll hang from your words, your baited breath
fall to my knees whenever she says
compliment the mess with baby's breath

starts with a "j" and ends with "ustified"

2009-04-22T15:22:00.000-07:00

we played in the garden, in the sunshine and the rain
we were little kids, we barely knew our names
content at just how discontent we were
but when the spring came, it changed everything we knew
i looked up at your trees, "you bear the strangest fruit..."

well it's my turn now, i never wanted to end up like you
but it's my turn now, we're all killers just like you

we plucked from the trees and even ate the seeds
we said, "oh my, oh yes, everything we thought we knew
just got up and left."
we never knew what we had started,
"can you bear what you have started?"

well it's my turn now, i never wanted to end up like you
but it's my turn now, we're all killers just like you
we're all dying just like you

we're all killers just like you
we're all dying just like you
we're starting fires just like you
we're just as lost as you

we're all killers just like you
(you bear the strangest fruit)
we're all dying just like you
(you bear the strangest fruit)
we're starting fires just like you
(you bear the strangest fruit)
we're just as lost as you
(you bear the strangest fruit)

the verdict falls like bachelors for bad luck girls

2009-04-21T15:12:00.000-07:00

i wanted to write you something poetic about your eyes and a sunrise
or your porcelain skin and our weekend long stints
i've ust got a bit of writer's block baby, that's all i'm sure
and when it's done, you'll have the prettiest song, the most potent cure

for all your long days and your sleepless nights
and the way your roomate leaves on the lights
i've just got a bit of writer's block baby, that's all i'm sure
and when it's done, you'll have the prettiest song, the most potent cure

i'll smile at the pictures on my wall
and pretend you're doing the same
hum the songs we used to talk through
and hope you remember their names

play the theif and steal all your favorite lines from record sleeves
to make you smile and forget when you need to leave
i've just got this bit of writer's block baby, that's all i'm sure
and when it's done, you'll have the prettiest song, the most potent cure

petty vandalism is it's own reward

2009-04-21T15:03:00.000-07:00

can i just crack a window? can i just vent this room?
the same way i'd like to tear some vents in you?
let out all the poison, let out all the memories
start again brand new the way we're supposed to be?
the way we thought we're supposed to be

well at least i hope you're happy, and every other cliche
because i'm sick of all my songs being about you
well at least i hope you're happy,but i'm sick of these cliches
and i'm sick of all my songs being about you

can i just break this wall down? can i just break the ice?
there's a million things i'd lask to ask you tonight
"how does it feel to be so high your feet can't reach the ground?
how does it feel to be so low your ears can't feel the sound?
to be so cliche your thoughts just spin around?"

well at least i hope you're happy, and every other cliche
because i'm sick of all my songs being about you
well at least i hope you're happy,but i'm sick of these cliches
and i'm sick of all my songs being about you

(spin) come tumbling down
(spin) come crashing down
(spin) come around
(spin) the way i sound
(spin) i'm coming down
(spin) i'm calming down
(spin) i'm sinking now
(spin) til i hit the
(spin) i'm sinking now
(spin) til i hit the
(spin)(spin)(spin)(spin)

don't trip potato chip

2009-04-17T15:52:00.001-07:00

well hey there platinum bombshell
come teach me what your war is all about
love, oh, and passion, oh
and all the things the mindless masses tout
well do you believe in fate?
i say we rewrite the pages
and do you believe in fate?
i say we rewrite the pages

well you said you're a hard pill to swallow, i said
you just weren't given the right person and
the only way i'll take you is on the rocks
the only way i'll take you is...

hey there bright eyed lightning bolt,
come teach me bout that spark in your eye
when i strum these chords and play you these lullabies
well do you believe in fate?
i say we rewrite the pages
and do you believe in fate?
i say we write our own pages

well you said you're a hard pill to swallow, i said
you just weren't given the right person and
the only way i'll take you is on the rocks
the only way i'll take you is...

and don't dilute the passion, or the poison
don't dilute your poison, don't lose your passion
i don't know what you said, but you get the best
and i don't know what you said, but you always get the best of...

you're like this drug i just can't get enough of
so roll me into your cigarette
smoke me care and don't let me get, oh, get, get ready and
on your mark, get ready, set go...

definitely maybe, maybe maybe
we'll live in your bed, your town your city
definitely maybe maybe maybe you'll fall in love
and i learned all about broken hearts before, love
just to break me, break me, break me
you'd have to build me, build me back up

oh, oh, oh

well you said you're a hard pill to swallow, i said
you just weren't given the right person and
the only way i'll take you is on the rocks
theonly way i'll take you is...

why me?

2009-04-14T03:11:00.000-07:00

if i drove my car through a brick wall
that might teach you what it's like to fall
if i sliced myself open so could see my heart
that would teach you what it's like to fall apart

it's my fist against the whiskey
and that should teach you to keep it
it's my will and fucking sleepers
and that will teach you to keep this

if I broke my fingers on this guitar
that would teach you to wish on all your God damned stars
and if I broke my bones against the bar
that would teach you to leave me with your mark

it's my fist against the whiskey
and that should teach you to keep it
it's my will and fucking sleepers
and that will teach you to keep this

and you can lay on your back
let the mattress break your fall
and i'll just have a little heart attack
it's nothing much at all

if I knew you wouldn't shed a tear
i'd do this all tonight
but even though you stoke my fear
i'll still think of you tonight

would you be embarrassed if I (blanked) you?

2009-04-13T15:36:00.000-07:00

wear that smile on your face like you're an angel
in disguise and out of mind, oh you're no angel
mail me pictures of how happy we could be,
i'll tear them apart and mail them back
and show you just how heartless i can be

it's cute how you're so fake
and it's cute how you're oh so tasteless
well we won't get anywhere
with these stories that you make
to take me home, take me home

wear that frown on your face like you're so sad
useless and out of sight and you're so bad
write me stories of how happy we could be
i'll correct the grammer and show you just how clever i can be

it's cute how you're so fake
and it's cute how you're oh so tasteless
well we won't get anywhere
with these stories that you make
to take me home, take me home

i'll rip you apart at the seams and shower you in everyone else's dreams
tack your sins up on the wall and watch you fall, oh, fall
was he that bad? did you wonder where i was?
did you make him so glad? when you wondered how i was?

well you're so delicate, i became a machine
you're so full of it, i became a machine
you're so powerless, i cbecame a machine
you're so full of shit, i am, i am a machine

it's cute how you're so fake
and it's cute how you're oh so tasteless
well we won't get anywhere
with these stories that you make
to take me home, i can't stand to hear you anymore

Ghosts

2009-04-08T15:48:00.000-07:00

these songs are just shells of what they used to be
written with heart and played until they fall apart...

these songs are just shells of what they used to be
written with heart and played until they fall apart
I've lost every bolt that ever held you to me
and every srew that meant something to me

i'm falling apart with all the best intentions
all my words are disentigrating
cut to the bone with all your grave decisions
and the way your hips keep swinging

well every word I ever wrote down
is running off with all your tear drops and your loss of life
no I never wrote you a song
without your fall planned out ahead of time
so take this ink with you
put it in your skin and in your hair
and take this kink with you
out of the small of my back and all my cares

i'm falling apart with all the best intentions
all my words are disentigrating
cut to the bone with all your grave decisions
and the way your hips keep swinging

will you ever know i wrote all these letters for you?
under this starlight and the city streets?
i wrote all these letters for you
gave up sleepless nights and city streets
I'm writing all these letters for you
for the ghost of this machine
we built when you stayed up late with me

these songs are just shells of what they used to be
written for the ghosts, the ghosts of you and me

it's not the lipstick that's poison, this time

2009-04-07T11:49:00.001-07:00

how does everyone keep breathing when true love ends?
because it does, and it always does and it does
keep going through the motions, holding on to the crutches
someone's bound to come along and change all that, right?

you'll just stumble through life and take shallow breaths
eyes glazed over from the cold and alone of your bed
drink to take care of all those emotions that try to hold steady
stay empty inside, the way she left you so broken you wept

said I don't care that I don't care anymore,
it's just something we do to pass the time away
instead of thinking of all the things she used to say
and I don't care that I don't care anymore,
she never meant a thing to me anyway
alright, she did, but she threw that all away

my bones are aching as I'm thinking of you some more
so go ahead, pour me some more
because this poison will kill you faster than me
my head is pounding as I'm thinking of you some more
so go ahead, pour me another,
because this poison will kill you faster than me

you'll just stumble through life and take shallow breaths
eyes glazed over from the cold and alone of your bed
drink to take care of all those emotions that try to hold steady
stay empty inside, the way she left you so broken you wept

wrapped up in you

2009-04-06T15:31:00.001-07:00

you look like a lush, you talk like a tease
you have me wrapped around your fingers
talk with a hush, i'm looking to please.
you got me wrapped around your fingers
the only place i want to be

I told you everything, all my deepest and darkest
and every single street
how you're my queen, how you're my everything....

how i miss the way we collide
the way we hit, and your hair wrapped around my finger tips
and the way the planets explode every time we kiss
and i love the way the stars glow every time we embrace

so stay awake, dreams only last one night,
and what we have should last a lifetime
stay awake, dreams only last one night
and what we have should last a lifetime

how i miss the way we would fight
the way we hit, and your hair wrapped around my finger tips
and the way the planets explode every time we kiss
and the way the stars glow every time we embrace

you look like a lush, you talk like a tease
you have me wrapped around your fingers
talk with a hush, i'm looking to please.
you got me wrapped around your fingers
the only place i want to be

We lived inside eachother

2009-04-06T15:19:00.001-07:00

it's in the quiet when I realize it,
all my thoughts creep back to you
it's in the quiet when I realize it,
everything creeps back to you
your name, oh, your picture in my mind
they used to force a smile on my lips
now it only makes me think of things I miss

where are you now? Where are you now?
I'm done waiting by the phone
I'm doen with things we used to know
Where are you now? Where are you now?
don't pick up the phone, it's full of things we used to know

it's a long drive home
and we all have a place to call our own
it's a long drive, oh, a long drive home
remember when we used to call eachother our home?
and it's a long drive home
and you're cute when you fall asleep
and the way you you're sinking like a stone
the way you dream of things we used to know

it's in the quiet when i realize it,
we used to call eachother home
you never used to care about it
done with what we used to know
you're a mastermind with plans for this
we used to call eachother home
I'm terrible company when i think of it

where are you now? Where are you now?
I'm done waiting by the phone
I'm doen with things we used to know
Where are you now? Where are you now?
don't pick up the phone, I won't answer it anymore

Sweets for the sweet, i think that's what i said

2009-03-27T23:19:00.000-07:00

I love the way you smile when your'e with me,
like the brightest ray of sun on the gloomiest day
and i love the way your seem to see everything
but somehow manage to stay focused on me

it's like everything i ever wished for came bundled up in you
and i just can't keep my eyes away from you
and I love the way you float across the room
hiding your wings, but i can seem them in the gloom

and i looked up in the sky, and saw the sunlight shingin bright
but I love the way you put it's rays to shame
every time i catch a glimpse of your perfect frame
and I looked up in the sky of this lonely desert town
saw the stars all trying just to keep your glowing down
but i love the way their efforts never seem make you frown

and i love the way the friction between us
is throwing sparks on everything around us
and if we're not careful we'll burn this building down,
we'll burn this building down

and oh i love the way the tension between us
is making sparks hit everything around us
and i love the way we bring these buildings down
we bring these buildings down all around us

and i love the way the terror between us
is something we've never even felt
but it'll bring this city down like nothing else
(all around us)
and i love the way we bring this city down
(all around us)
and i love the way i'm wrapped around your finger
anything for you sweetheart, I'm willing and eager

Cardiomyopathy

2009-03-27T22:54:00.000-07:00

it's so simple I thought, but you complicate everything,
and one more glimpse of being sought, but you complicate everything
so paint your face up something nice, like a work of art
and it was just like a movie's porn, you're a terrible actress
bad costumes to match this, hope you give up soon cause i can't take much more of this

and i tried to fight this infection, i really did, i really did,
took all the right pills and all those injections, i really did, i really did
but you complicated everything, you really did, you really did

lying on a gurney, and lying to the surgeon
"oh, no I don't smoke, oh, no I don't drink.
oh, no I won't ever think of her again."
but she's watching through the glass,
watching heartbeats pass through monitors and vials filled with the past

and i tried to fight this infection, i really did, i really did,
took all the right pills and all those injections, i really did, i really did
but you complicated everything, you really did, you really did
and these pills aren't working like they said did, like they said they did

so paint your face up something nice, like a work of art
pretend you used something other than lies, just this once
and just for tonight I'll cover up this broken heart
and find someone better than (you)
someone more deserving than (you)
find someone who just isn't you, just isn't you

Accidental Koalas

2009-03-27T15:47:00.000-07:00

so now I sit here with this pen
surrounded by friends and all alone again,
and all i can think to write is your name over and over again,
over and over again

I'm listening to say anything,
and the only song that ever plays is girlfriend
but i said i'm not getting my hopes up this time
even though you're more stunning with every line

and now i sit with this guitar,
surrounded by friends and all our cars
and all i can think to play are these melodies i wrote with you in mind
these melodies i wrote with you in mind

i'm listening to the spill canvas
and all i can say is the chemistry
between us will destroy this place
but your more stunning with every line i lace

and you're more beautiful with every line
and every single song
but all my favorite singers have stolen all of my best lines
and all of my best songs
so i've got nothing else to do than sing them to you one at a time
and your'e more beautiful with every line
and every melody i wrote with you in mind

international dialing codes

2009-03-06T15:13:00.001-08:00

Goddamn those american boys,
they'll be the death of me just you wait and see,
staying up til dawn just to say hello...

and we've got all these high tech toys
and they don't work but that's just plain to see
so we'll climb to mountaintops and say...

well she said she had this american love,
and somehow missed him though she never met him,
it seems craz yso we'll just wait and see,
she said she had this american love...

well Goddamn those american men,
they're the strangest kind of people you'd have met
but they're just hopeless it would seem...

we've got a million miles,
all the roads lead back to you
cause they're just hopeless it would seem...

well she said she had this american love,
and somehow missed him though she never met him,
it seems craz yso we'll just wait and see,
she said she had this american love...

well what happened to the times
you could travel just by guessing the miles?
and what happened to the times
you could get there just by glancing through smiles?

we've got a million miles and half this world,
but i swear i'll get there someday, girl,
we've got a million miles and half this world,
but i swear i'll get there someday, girl...

My Self Confidence vs. Your New Reliance

2009-03-04T14:41:00.000-08:00

well alright, that's it, I've finally had enough of this
you games and all of your bullshit
i refuse to play this with you anymore
once a, well once a, well you're nothing more, said nothing more...

well i'll place bets and watch you drop,
we're all watching as you fall, got tickets to see who will win this all
and if it's me, I'm betting on the drugs and alcohol,
and if it's me, i'll be letting you fall

well your new opinion looks good on you,
glad your new friends helped you pick your new look
and there's enough here to go around
to what comes around you, to what comes around you

and oh, let me tell you,
I'm through with everything you thought you knew
(and oh, let me tell you)
so forget what you've heard because now I'm brand new...
(and oh, let me tell you)

well i'll place bets and watch you drop,
we're all watching as you fall, got tickets to see who will win this all
and if it's me, I'm betting on the drugs and alcohol,
and if it's me, i'll be letting you fall

and now there's colored flashing lights in your rearview
(and oh, let me tell you)
and all the people you thought were freinds will abandon you
(and oh, let me tell you)
and I hope you come crawling back to,
(and oh, let me tell you)
well i hope you go crawling back to...
(and oh, let me tell you)
(and oh, let me tell you)
(and oh, let me tell you)

because I'll let you know I bet just right all because I know you
and i know who you are and how you're nothing more,
nothing more, nothing more than a...

Accidents and Gravity

2009-02-26T16:47:00.000-08:00

there was a crash,
violent white splintered through my eyes
and there was the glass,
violent red splinters from the sky
well what are you waiting for?
what, oh, what are you waiting for?

watch the incident in slow motion
watch the metal burn and break,
everything just happened for a reason
we'll never know, we'll watch it fade

and there was a crash
i hit the sandbar but I'm still sinking
waves rolled in,
swept the tide and white away from here
swept the sand and blood against my screaming ears,
what are you waiting for?
what oh, what are you waiting for?

watch the incident in slow motion
watch the wood burn and break,
everything just happened for a reason
we'll never know, we'll watch it fade

tell me all your secrets and i'll keep them
tell me all yoru lies and i'll believe them
but I've gotta keep moving,
i've gotta keep moving if i want to keep breathing
tell me all the ways you hurt
your broken bones and shattered heart
in the back of the ambulance,
they said "you've gotta keep moving if you want to keep breathing"

watch the incident in slow motion
(in the back of the ambulance)
watch the metal burn and break,
(you'ev gotta keep moving)
everything just happened for a reason
(in the back of the ambulance)
we'll never know, we'll watch it fade
(if you, if you want to keep breathing)

St. Valentine's Day Massacre

2009-02-16T15:50:00.000-08:00

well i finally know what it's like to be alone
on a valentine's day
no chocolate or candy or pink roses that say
you're the one, the best or my only
and that should be a sad song but all i can say (is)

the day after is just the same,
every rose still has it's name
it's just the same as any other day
and it's just the same to me

went for a walk to clear my head
got halfway through and said "I think I understand,"
watched the sun come up for another day
stood on the balcony and watched some dogs play
looked at the clouds, overcast and gray
thought to myself

the day after is just the same,
every rose still has it's name
it's just the same as any other day
and it's just the same to me

well we haven't had a rain like this in months
wash away the deeds and mistrust
stood out in it and watched it pour
looked around said "boy i hope we're in for more,"
checked into my mental state
they told me eevrything had changed
asked the doctor what had been the cure
he looked at me "son just pray we're in for more."
we're in for more, we're in for more, we're in for more.

the day after is just the same,
every rose still has it's name
it's just the same as any other day
and it's just the same to me

the sky breathed in gave it one last try,
enough to make sure that nothing's dry
said I'll do what I can, boy, I'll do what I can,
but I had to make sure things stayed the same
for valentine's day, for valentine's day
went for a walk to clear my head,
got halfway through and said "i think i understand"

crunch time, punch time

2009-02-12T16:36:00.001-08:00

well you're the only thing that I see,
and it's complicated, it's complicated,
but I can't feel this from anyone
no one else but you, see,
but it's complicated, see, complicated...

and i said i doubt you know what you've been missing
shameless degrees of separation
counting your distance from me
every second getting further away

these days, these trials and misdeeds,
come on you used to give it away
you used to give it away
all those times i fought the pain,
when it was blue pills or red pills
but you're the drug i need
come on you used to give it away
you used to give this away

and i said i doubt you know what you've been missing
shameless degrees of separation
counting your distance from me
every second getting further away,
you used to give this away

coffee's only there to pretend to keep you up
when you sleep all day to avoid the pain, reality,
coffee's only there to pretend to keep you up
but i don't give a fuck, said I don't give a fuck...

and i said i doubt you know what you've been missing
shameless degrees of separation
counting your distance from me
every second getting further away

"I still fucking love her, bro."

2009-02-09T02:31:00.000-08:00

as soon as I'm ready to give up
you pull me back in like a hurricane
a weather pattern, compliment my fucked up stature
and i said i'll walk home it was more like a stagger
because i'm ready to give up

and i said I'm not the strong one here
let me show you all the scars i laid there
but i just want to see you smile
and if i'll i've gotta do is swallow these...

said it was more like a stagger, drunken charm
swagger and pass her and i'll just sit right here
if i was doing something right someone would have told me tonight
if i was doing this right you'd be holding my hand tonight
it was more like a stagger, drunken charm

and i said I'm not the strong one here
let me show you all the blues i used to spill there
but if all i've gotta do to see you smile
is lay down here and die for a while

well it takes two to believe
and fewer will leave you alone
nothing says i love you like no one saying i love you
and it takes two to believe but you seemed to lose your faith
it takes two to believe, and it takes two to believe
and you seemed to lose your faith

well i said i'm not the strong one here
let me show you all the reds i used to spill here
and all i wanna do is make you smile
so i'll lay down here and die for a while

She's more like a gateway drug

2009-02-09T02:24:00.000-08:00

for the longest you were my cocaine,
expensive and addicting
and I'm relapsing again
Said I don't need you
but we both know that's the other way around
said i could forget you
but we both know that's the other way around

shoot me up, breathe me in,
do whatever you have to to feel alive again
shoot me up, breathe me in,
do whatever you have to to feel alive again

and these cigarettes don't taste the same
without you around
and talking bout a war
I'll waste the time while you're in town
and until you are, it's whiskey shots in the cheapest bars
i said it's whiskey shots, in the cheapest bars...

shoot me up, breathe me in,
do whatever you have to to feel alive again
shoot me up, oh baby breathe me in,
do whatever you have to to feel alive again

well you can fall and fade
there's plenty other stars in the sky
and baby you were the best one they made
just do another line and call it a night

because for the longest you were my cocaine
expensive and addicting
and i'm gonna relapse again
and again and again and again

shoot me up, breathe me in,
do whatever you have to to feel alive again
shoot me up, breathe me in,
do whatever you have to to feel alive again

but you already do that anyway, don't you.

2009-02-05T02:44:00.000-08:00

Something made my heart break

and someone made my lungs ache

and maybe when i'm done serenading all your pain away

and maybe when i'm done singing all my smiles away

well I've been staring at mirrors and breaking glares

and all i wanna do is get you lonely, lonely, lonely

breaking down and crying from all these scares

and all i wanna do is get you lonely, lonely, lonely

up from the dirt and lacking any worth

and i've got a pocket full of broken glass

just to pick all the blood from my shirt

falling away from anything you used to say

i've got a spot where my heart used to pass

for something that used to convey

well i've been staring at mirrors and breaking glass

all i wanna do is get you lonely, lonely, lonely

break you down and bottle up the cries over past

and all i wanna do is get you lonely, lonely, lonely

drive, drive, drive, babe

and get alone

drive, drive, drive, babe

sink like a stone

drive, drive, drive, babe

and get alone,

drive, drive, drive, babe

help me break something

other than bones

because something made my heart break

and someone made my lungs ache

and something forced my hand's stake

and something made my heart break

well I've been staring at mirrors and breaking glares

and all i wanna do is get you lonely, lonely, lonely

breaking down and crying from all these scares

well i've been staring at mirrors and breaking glass

all i wanna do is get you lonely, lonely, lonely

break you down and bottle up the cries over past

An Ascetic In a World of Extravagance

2009-02-03T15:07:00.000-08:00

if you're the fire in my heart
then I'm just the smoke in your lungs
breathe me in and watch me fade away singing...
but a better anology would have to be
you're all the smoke in my lungs
always there, keeping me aware, aware, aware...

well she said what she said
and it's not the words i care about
too fucked up to remember the eact quote anyhow
I can't remember, can't remember...

and if you're the music in my bones
just keep playing so i can keep strumming
if you're the fractures, crumpled stature
then let me sit up straight for just this once
just this once, oh, just this once

well she said what she said
and it's not the words i care about
too fucked up to remember the eact quote anyhow
I can't remember, can't remember, can't remember...

And I can't remember the words
but I've got you in my lungs
breathing in your air like all the words i wish i'd sung
and i want this to be clever
something at least you'll remember
but all i've got is all the words i wish i'd sung

but if my body's just here to be a safehouse
for you to lie and run your mouth
then you're in my lungs, in my bones,
all the fractures and cancers
now i'm sinking like a stone, a stone, a stone

well she said what she said
and it's not the words i care about
too fucked up to remember the eact quote anyhow
I can't remember, can't remember....

"it sounds to me like she just needs time"

2009-01-31T15:30:00.000-08:00

I'll keep the beat on this balcony

and we've got family singing into the night

and it's a downhill from here

so just sit tight, and I'm just buzzed enough to

play you a lullaby

and I'm sure there's a key I could sing in just to win your heart

so I'll try them all out on you, just play your part

smile real big and you've already won my heart

look me in the eyes again, here's where the fun starts

and that's two down, how many to go?

well I hope you decide to stick around

for the end of the show

because I'm playing al my songs for you girl,

and trying not to shake so hard my heart explodes

and I'm sure there's a key I could sing in just to win your heart

so I'll play all your favorites, just play your part

smile like you do you've already won my heart

look me in the eyes again, here's where the fun starts

and then the music all fades out

and it's just you and me

it may be the jack talking but all i see is you and me

I'll play something pretty

and hope you see only me

and I'll sing anything you want me to

if you'll just smile the way you do

and I'm sure there's a key I could sing in just to win your heart

so I'll play all your favorites, just play your part

smile like you do you've already won my heart

look me in the eyes again, here's where the fun starts

Well Someone has a potty mouth

2009-01-31T15:22:00.001-08:00

I watch you smoke those cigarettes

and drink down your pink drinks

and the way your lips move

just makes the heartache sink away

well I'll m, m, meet you in the bedroom

and sh, shake through the taste of you

well I'll meet you in the bedroom...

well I saw those pink drinks get the best of you

mixed drinks made by the best around you

it's almost like watching an angel

and i can't wait for when you fall

becausewell I'll m, m, meet you in the bedroom

a whole night just to taste of you

well I'll meet you in the bedroom

for a whole night of you

so turn around again, I've got this, I've got you

spin around again, in my hands and mind it's all you

flip your hair again, because all i want is you

and we're all lying just to be the best

but we're trying not to look like we're the best

we've got hearts on our sleeves

broken, tattered like the bedsheets

and we're staring down, staring down, staring down...

because if home is where the heart is

then I want mine back

if home is where the heart is

please pick up the slack

because we're all lying just to be the best

and trying just to pass this test

and if i do I'll meet you in the bedroom

breathe in the sweet taste of you

and I'll meet you in the bedroom in you

too infinity

2009-01-28T17:41:00.000-08:00

I've got all this ringing in my ears

and it's all I'll ever hear

I'm not even sure

what my voice sounds like anymore

now recordings of me are singing you to sleep

now lay close to blankets and sheets,

dream of gentle things, I hope you dream of me

I've got self esteem to match your low cut jeans,

and memories that seem to sting with words I'd hoped you'd say

but in your eyes...

I've got lullabies for days,

al the things that I'll never say

and scarred hands that only make chords and notes

because I can't hold you close

so dream of gentle things, I hope you dream of me

I've got self esteem to match your low cut jeans

and memories that seem to sting with words I'd hoped you'd say,

but in your eyes...

And I told you most but kept the rest inside,

but in your eyes all i see is summertime

all the things that I won't ever say seem to melt away in your eyes

and I've got self esteem to match your low cut jeans,

and rhythms to match your idioms

a guitar to sing you to sleep,

wherever you are

So dream of gentle things, I hope you dream of me

lay in blankets and sheets, I hope you pretend they're me

recordings of me are singing you to sleep

so dream of gentle things, well I hope you dream of me

Here's another letter with your name on it

2009-01-28T17:35:00.000-08:00

All these words don't mean anything,

and all the phrases I've nurtured amount to nothing

just some wasted time, wasted space,

wasted strings and calluses until I see your face

I said I was lying when I called you my cure

well if you want to know the truth I was lying there, for sure...

Now I'm lying on the couch and you're lying too,

how much more of this can we take?

It's just a test to see what's inside me,

until I can see inside you

Well I sure wasn't lying when I called you my cure

and if you want to know the truth I'm lying on the floor to hear from you

So just take me out, take me anywhere

away from here

knock me out, quick one two

from no one else but you

why is it that all my words come back to you?

All the sad words don't mean anything

and all the sad phrases I've nurtured amount to nothing

it's just amazing times, valued space

I'll break all the strings and calluses to see your face

because all the happy things come back to you

Wearing my heart on my record sleeve

2009-01-24T12:23:00.000-08:00

well this hangover is just about as bad as it gets

and from where i'm sitting i got nothing that fits

i'd like to throw on these old shoes, walk around the block

converse with my converse

have a 27 and watch the sidewalk chalk

but then again...

all i wanted was to see you smile

but i saw through your teeth, like a child,

"that's sweet but," just stop there

everything you want to say will just cloud the air

well this hangover stings worse than you

too bad its' temporary because i'll just go back to you

back to all the things that i wish you would say

all the things i'll never ever hear your voice say

I guess that's ok, I'll have to understand

Now I just don't get to hold your hand, talk about life

tell you how i feel and give in to all the strife

but then again...

all i wanted was to see you smile

but i saw through your teeth, like a child,

"that's sweet but," just stop there

everything you want to say will just cloud the air

and i know i have my problems

i don't sleep, wear my heart on my (record) sleeve

everything i told you was true but not the half of it

i wrote you a song once before, you know

talking about how you were my only cure

i guess that makes me a liar, too

but then again...

all i wanted was to see you smile

but i saw through your teeth, like a child,

"that's sweet but," just stop there

everything you want to say will just cloud the air

Will you go out with me?

2009-01-22T10:05:00.000-08:00

Alright, I'll admit. this song is just dripping with... cheesy, hopeless romanticism. But you know what, it's a good change to the violent depressing stuff. So, there ya go.

Alright, here's the plan

it involves me, you, and a coffee stand

I'll meet you after work

with your favorite drink in hand

And I'll sing you a cheesy song

if you'll close your eyes, rest your head, lend me your hand

i know you never knew what my plan is,

and even if you did you still put up with my shit

well, I have something I'd like to ask you...

alright, here's the deal

I need you near me to make me feel real

ever since Dinapoli's all you've done is steal

steal my mind, my heart and feelings

and trust me, this only gets cheesier

I hope you never knew what my plan was,

but even if you did you still put up with all my suck.

well, I have something I'd like to ask you,

just look at your coffee cup

I can't move, blush, make a smile

2009-01-18T18:26:00.000-08:00

Don't you wish you could be the rain?

Falling, how you feel, washing away your pain?

Did they ever tell you you were their rain?

The on thing that could leave them of all their pain?

Let their fever break out in your head

let their glare break your exterior

let their words grab you against what you said

Is he what you wanted?

nothing more than a whore dressed in boy's clothing

well I see right through, right through him and you

he'll give you the world dipped in deceit and lies

but if he's what you wanted

well I make this sound

this sound of drowns and nouns

twisting around my devotion

twisting around my feelings for you

this isn't what I wanted

faith misplaced is devotion ignored

drown and start to breath

Is he what you wanted?

nothing more than a whore dressed in boy's clothing

well I see right through, right through him and you

he'll give you the world dipped in deceit and lies

but if he's what you wanted

you feel that twisting, falling, tearing down?

you hear that screaming, moaning, drowning out?

well, if he's what you wanted.

you feel that twisting, falling, tearing down?

you hear that screaming, moaning, drowning out?

well, if that's what you wanted then don't call me back.

I'll hold you, hide you, protect your feathered down

you're this sweetness in a world so bitter

you're becoming bitter now

well if that's what you wanted then don't call me back.

desperate disasters, casual pastors

2009-01-17T23:01:00.000-08:00

and she said, she had a good time

a great night, somehow this just felt right,

I said we should do it again

and she said for sure, friend, for sure, for sure

is this what i wanted all along?

because they sit in my head and sing

and you're so tired of life, boy

time to look in the mirror

don't you dare play coy

this will make your head clearer

this has all gone wrong, I said

somewhere along the lines I missed what she meant

now I'm waiting by the phone like in every other song

what happened to the good moods and all the disappearing wrongs?

is this what i wanted all along?

because they sit in my head and sing

and you're so tired of life, boy

time to look in the mirror

don't you dare play coy

this will make your head clearer

just give up again

it's all you'll ever do

it's all you, it's all you'll

ever amount to

because you're just some skin and bones, now walk

you used to be alive,

and you were raised to be dead

I've seen this once before

I'm really not so sure,

but I've seen this once before

I've seen this once before

and you're so tired of life, boy

time to look in the mirror

don't you dare play coy

this will make your head clearer

Well, I'm free tomorrow...

2009-01-17T13:10:00.000-08:00

it's in the way you sway those hips,

it's in the way you move your lips,

it's in the way your body sits,

these are the parts that tell me to persist

so say those words just one more time

"surre" with two r's let me know you're mine for tonight

close your eyes, baby, you've got a surprise

take my hand, baby, trust me and I've got you tonight

it's in the way you sway those hips,

it's in the way you move your lips,

it's in the way your body sits,

these are the parts that tell me to persist

take me home with you, make me yours

whatever you need for me to do

Just say the words and I'll be there

making sure what's yours stays yours

it's in the way you swing those hips,

it's in the breath i taste on your lips,

it's in the way your body sits,

these are the parts that tell me why i exist

tell me stories, tell me lies

tell me anything to make me feel alive

tell me tales, make me ties,

give me anything to feel alive

About Today

2009-01-17T13:03:00.000-08:00

Keep your hands on the wheel,

shake off a little fear,

everything good today has come from you, dear

I didn't mind if you smoked, but you'll ask anyway, I mean,

this whole week of fear and despair rises in breaths and leave in drags

well we could stay in bed all day,

if you'd just stay with me

I'll make sure you're safe and warm with

your arms wrapped around me

I may not be smooth but I think I'm good for you

Let go of the wheel, just this once,

throw it in park and forget the world

Fall with me into the stars,

into the nights, the clouds, the bars

just fall with me, stay with me tonight

because we could stay in bed all day,

if you'd just stay with me

I'll make sure you're safe and warm

with your arms wrapped around me

I may not be smooth but I think I'm good for you

well have I ever told you, all the things you do to me?

have I ever gave you, all the fear you place in me?

and have i ever told you, all the things you do to me?

and have i ever gave you a heart to swear to me you'd keep?

well have i ever told you? said have i ever told you?

well have i ever told you? have i ever told you?

fall with me into the stars

(have i ever told you?)

into the nights, the clouds, the bars

(have i ever told you?)

throw it in park

(have i ever told you?)

forget the world

I'll start to worry when I'm dead

2009-01-13T12:08:00.000-08:00

"come on out of your cave and into the city, i said, a come on, out of your cave, and oh, into the city..."

so maybe I could use blogger for actually posting blogs and not just lyrics/poems. eh, worth a shot.

I guess trying new things can be fun. Sure, most people would be all "well duh dickass," but I used to be the kind of person who wouldn't try new things and just kinda stuck to my own thing. Last night alone I tried a bunch of new things and I'm so happy that I did. It was ana amazing night and there's nothing else to it. btw, calamari = pretty tasty.

so, here's the point. if you read this, I'm counting it as a nonverbal contract, and by you reading the previous phrase "nonverbal contract" you're agreeing to it.

Go out today and do something new. Something you've always wanted to do and just never did. I'm going to. I'm nervous as hell. And if you are, too, find someone special to do it with. This is also what I'm doing. I'm scared but excited for it too. But I know being with someone helps out. I mean, come on, I tried calamari and liked it.

hey, this is a contract, you agreed, go do it.

My heart tried to explode (in a good way)

2009-01-12T15:32:00.000-08:00

you walked in the room
i was still outside and my heart skipped out of tune
you made your rounds, hugs to everyone
ray of sunshine in this dark cold night

i'll admit, I almost dropped my cigarette
well tonights no different than any other night,
same good friends, same good time
how do you do this to me?

all the nicotine isn't helping my breathing
but the real reason is you sitting here
have i told you have pretty eyes? (no, that's dumb)
did i mention i dig your styel? (no, that's dumb)

i'll admit, i almost dropped my cigarette
well tonight's no different than any other night
same good friends, same good time
how do you do this to me?

is it so much to ask that you don't mess with my breathing?
you already have my heart ready to explode
although I think it's amazing that you're sitting right here
maybe i'll work up the nerve to talk
maybe i'll say something clever, sweep you off your feet?
casanova's got nothing on me, i think,
as i ask you to dinner instead

Blend No. 27

2009-01-11T13:44:00.000-08:00

do you ever think of me?
all this smoke, these cigarettes,
do you even think of me?
if not could you let me fade to obscurity?
but if so could you just....please... tell me?

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd just about die

well hey thanks for coming to my show
did you know one of those songs i played for you?
i'm cheesy but you, you're soft and only,
and baby you, you're lost and loney,
and only you, well you're just like heaven
and it'll be worth going to prison
if that got a smile out of you

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd swear to be alive

i'd swear i wasn't going anywhere
but i'm not giving up on you
so i'll pretend i'm winning you over
if you won't give up either

do you ever think of me?
all this smoke, these cigarettes?
do you even think of me?

do you ever think of me?
have another 27, sweetie,
do you even think of me?

I brought you coffee at work

to say everything i never could

at least you thought it was sweet, and I'm a dork,

but I just knew what you'd say, you would

i just can't stand to say goodbye, babe

and everything i'd ever say you already heard

what else could i do to make you stay?

besides pretty songs and compliments?

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd swear to be alive

have another 27, sweetie, do you ever think of me?

"I'm fucked up in stereo"

2009-01-11T13:39:00.000-08:00

what's the point in living when living's lost it's love?
what's the point in loving when loving's lost it's life?

all at once the music stopped,
you stepped into the room.
everybody saw and dropped
you're a walking breathing time bomb
just waiting to go off...

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and it shouldn't be harder than this

all at once the record skipped,
you messed us up again (dammit girl)
come on out of your cave and into the light
and you fucked up the beat again

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and just let her slip away

well i know
i'm falling into the radio
they always play a slow song
and it's fucking me up in stereo
so here's your life
in black and white
i wrote it out for you
made sure details were covered
only you could know
so listen to the radio
listen to my songs
tell your friends they're about you
before i sing all your wrongs

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and it's all you know exists

Pretend this isn't about you.

2009-01-11T13:28:00.000-08:00

well i hope you regret
everything you said
and if i'm lucky you'll live to see the day the day I wed
cry yourself to sleep
in your broken bed,
let her wake you up, she'd rather see you instead...

i'm done with being alone
and I'm doin with you being gone
it was sweet to be wrapped around your finger
oh the things i've seen only make this sweeter

all the skin i lost on you
only grew back stronger
strong enough to resist your touch
and your lying laughter

if you made the wrong decision,
why don't you try and fix it?
oh, that's right, i forgot, you're just scared to prove it
but don't think i'll forget
all the things you told me
you always said you loved me so
I'll believe it if i see....

i'm done with being alone
and I'm doin with you being gone
it was sweet to be wrapped around your finger
oh the things i've seen only make this sweeter

you must not <3 me

2009-01-06T15:27:00.000-08:00

she said she hurts the nice guys,
and maybe she was right
she she loved him more, and I think that's alright,

because as long as you're smiling, babe, I'm smiling too.
as long as you're smiling babe, well I'm smiling too.

I'll construct my songs
so you can deconstruct my thoughts
they're still yours the way there were when you taught me

that as long as I'm smiling, babe, you're smiling too.
and as long as I'm smiling, dear well you're smiling too.

tell me all the things you have,
girl you know i'll listen
and tell me all the things you keep,
girl you know i'll keep them

She said stay positive, and I think she was right
she said it'll work out then and I think she was right,

because if you're smiling, babe, then I'm smiling too
and I know if you're smiling, then I'm smiling too

in no time, there'll be one less boy
singing sogns because he's lonely
he knows she doesn't love him
but she taught him more than any lover ever could
and he knows that she loves him in a way
that no other ever could

This song is for a beautiful girl

2009-01-06T15:19:00.000-08:00

i'd like to ask yuou a favor, dear,
one I don't know if you can do
you see you've got my breath trappd again
and I need it to talk to you
You steal it everytimes I hear your voice
and you don't ever give it back

well here's the plan, I'll fly you to the stars
We'll swim in the big dipper
and we'll camp somewhere on mars
if you promise, if you swear
that you'll be mine

I threw you up into the sky once before
and you fell into my arms again
so baby, we'll try this once more

because I'm driving too fast on this old desert highway
driving to see your face, hear your voice against
the sounds of the new freeway

so here's the plan, I'll fly you to spain
ad we'll watch the lovers dance
we'll own the hotel until the day that we go back
if you promise, if you'll swear
that you'll be mine

you said, "well come see me,
let me see what I've been missing."
I'll stay anywhere you want to be
and show you what you've been missing
Let me take you by the hand,
ask you what's in your big plans
then i'll tell you mine
since they're all in your hands

And I'll say "here's the plan
we'll drive until there's no more roads
we'll see the ocean span the world
and we'll lay low, or way up high
as long as you promise, if you swear that you'll be mine"

Right after I wrote this, she said she didn't love me

2009-01-04T12:05:00.000-08:00

well this is all new territory

for me

you've got this hold,

this grip on me

your eyes are full of metaphors that I can't even comprehend

so I got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

and I got nothing on this on this on this

you make me rhyme

in ways I can't remember

you've had this hold on me

ever since september

so I'll just close my eyes

remember times

close my eyes

remember times

so i got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

so I got nothing on this

and I got nothing on you

if I could make this last forever

this one night, with no fights

and the clouds are trying to rain

if I could make this last forever

this one night, the dark skies

and you're shielding me from all the pain

so i got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

so I got nothing on this

and I got nothing on you

I'm done with your shit

2009-01-03T15:06:00.000-08:00

i thought you'd be done with this by now

but I guess you'd rather play some more

but I'm done with this, baby, I'm done with you

because I can't play your games anymore

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

i've never felt so used

as when you lean on my shoulder

like I'm the only thing you need

what you used to need

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

get away from, get away from me

I can't breathe your poison breath,

can't kiss your poison lips

so get away from, get away from me

I can't see your evil eyes

and I can't taste your evil lies

get away from, get away from me

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

This is probably the last song about you

2009-01-01T12:39:00.000-08:00

I called you up, said I missed you like hell.

You replied, that's great but well,

he'll be home soon.

I said I hope he's better and

you stopped, you paused, you stopped.

Well I hope you're happy now,

because this is the last song.

This is the last song.

I called you up, said let's get some lunch.

You replied, boy I miss your touch

I miss your kiss.

I guess he wasn't better

because you stopped, you thought, you stopped.

Now you're crying on my shoulder

in your own little world

Now you've crashed on the shoulder

tiny white nails in your world

So savor this song,

savor my voice,

savor your choice,

cause this is the last song.

Cause this is the last song.

And I hope you're happy now

cause this is the last song

this is the last one about you

this is the last song

Short lived like your love

cause this is the last song

Dark and slow like it's your own

so this is the last song

this is the last song.

I'm not saying you're a liar... you just don't tell the truth

2008-12-29T12:25:00.000-08:00

let's burn this city down

we'll need matches and gasoline

I think the fire might cleanse this desert town

We can drive home by the lights of the burning tires

but you'll still be there,

leaning on a wall with a cigarette in your hand

but you'll still be there

gracing them with a silhouette where you used to stand

And I never said I would stop this drinking

because it's what keeps me going

and if it's ok with you, I'll pass out on justin's couch

because going home only reminds me of you

And I never said that I was perfect

but I changed for you and proved it

I did it how you wanted

and you did him how you wanted, too

but you'll still be there,

leaning on a wall with a cigarette in your hand

but you'll still be there

gracing them with a silhouette where you used to stand

this life is certainly not certain

and I know you caught that when you decided

to spend the night with him instead of me

But now I hope you'll see what you're missing

see what you've been wanting in a boy an a guitar

But I know you won't see what you've been missing

You won't see what you been doing to a boy and his heart

this life is certainly not certain

but I'll see you around, because

but you'll still be there,

leaning on a wall with a cigarette in your hand

but you'll still be there

gracing them with a silhouette where you used to stand

I never said that I would stop this drinking

because that's what keeps me going

the drunk hours I don't spend on you are the hours when I can sleep

but the drunk hours I don't spend on you are the ones I wish I was

A Friend To All Is A Friend To None

2008-12-24T23:40:00.000-08:00

Well I've got issues from here to minnesota

and I coulda sworn, woulda thought I told you but

If you're asking me these things then I guess I didn't

or maybe you're just so high that you fucking missed it again

Well I hope you learn the words

I hope you sing along

I hope you write this in your diary

pouring tears all over my songs

these things, these words just don't register

you're dyslexic when you're drunk

and now you're taking it back, no returns

when you've torn all the tags off and you're soaking wet from all the scorn,

and all the wars, that you wake up just to fight every night

well I hope you learn the words

and I hope you sing along

I hope you scribble this on napkins

coffee stains on every one of my songs

take another hit, girl, take another

and when you hit the floor

you move your feet like no other

well take another hit, girl, take another

and when you hit the floor

you'll stay passed out til you're sober

so tell a story

tell a lie

tell a secret after you said that you'd keep it

smile some more

lie with him tonight

I'll tell all your secrets, you better wish that you had kept that

trying not to fall into that same cliche

it's what I'm best at, it's what I'm best at

and when I don't, I hope you see the day

when you wish you were right here by my side

Well I hope you learn the words

I hope you sing along

I hope you write this in your diary

pouring tears all over my songs

well I hope you learn the words

and I hope you sing along

I hope you scribble this on napkins

coffee stains on every one of my songs

Well I hope you learn my words

and I hope you play along

I hope you write this on your hands

and remember it forever long

whiskey with a shot of apathy

2008-12-21T22:10:00.000-08:00

the music is slipping out

dripping down my finger tips

it's colored red like blood

but blue and black like you

it hits the ground in crescendos and quarters

and leaves the colors there to wash away alone

this isn't a love song, but you can have it anyway

it might still be about if you know the right things to say

bleed it out of me, like everything else

fuck it out of me, like everything else

close your eyes and lie to me, like everyone else

like everything else you ever said

was just a little white lie,

harmless story,

perfect alibi

and even though I see right through

I'm waiting for your next lie

The music's bleeding out of me

(you have this way with me)

the color's fading out

(you had your way with me)

excuses falling out

(i thought you loved me)

now the makeup's washing off

(i hope he's better than me)

because this isn't a love song

but you can have it anyway

it could still be about you

if you know the right things to say

bleed it out of me, like everything else

fuck it out of me, like everything else

beat it out of me like everyone else

the music is slipping out

dripping down to you

another wasted song

and another wasted verse on you

High Desert Liars

2008-12-21T10:30:00.000-08:00

you're this terrible piece of art

tragedy painted on your heart

you want all these great things

but no one ever seems to see that part

because you're living in a lame excuse

another wasted breath on you

obtuse, the angle, that you lie

but stretch your spine it's almost summertime

and trust me you'll know when you get there

Cali has this way with you

and trust me, you'll see when you get scared

who's really on his way to pick up you

because you're living in a lame excuse

another wasted breath on you

obtuse, the angle, that you lie

but stretch your spine it's almost summertime

play your little games

lie down with whoever's close

and I'll be on that train again

playing for whoever's close

Cali has this way with you

so drink another bottle

what's it gonna hurt to?

While I smoked the road

I watched it burn

kept my body warm

when you refused to

Cali has this way with you

all done up with no one to take you

but you're sleeping it off

show them who's boss

because they've always had their way with you

because you're living in a lame excuse

another wasted breath on you

obtuse, the angle, that you lie

but stretch your spine it's almost summertime

"Are you still shaking?" "A little bit."

2008-12-16T02:19:00.000-08:00

shhhhhhhh

hush little baby

let me tell you a story

about a boy who thought it was over

he used to hate, because it never felt right

and he did all in his power to change

he smoked too much and watched his heart explode

he cut himself open to ease the pressure in his veins

that's when he heard her say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these pills own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the pain inside won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these broken hearts bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if you help one person it'll all be worth it."

Shhhhhh

hush little lush

let me tell you a story

about a girl the boy used to love

he broke her neck and in the attack

left her bleeding on the pavement

she said he wouldn't change

even though he had

she filled all her empty spaces

with all the things she swore she wouldn't

that's when he heard her say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these pills own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the pain inside won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these broken hearts bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if you help one person it'll all be worth it."

She said he lied,

he said baby, you're right

but it doesn't give you the excuse

to give up your entire life

that's when she heard him say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these drugs own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the false friends won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these bloody noses bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if I help you fight back it'll all be worth it."

So listen listen listen

I'm sure you hear the crickets chirping

and all the birds are singing your song

so listen listen listen

I'm telling you that your life is worth living

and all the things you know that you did wrong

are all just milestones

showing you from where you came

and all these broken bones

and heart attacks

and nights that you spent wishing

just remind you of the day

you realized everything would be ok.

because that's when he heard her say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these pills own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the pain inside won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these broken hearts bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if you help one person it'll all be worth it."

Caricatures and scrapbooks

2008-12-11T21:14:00.000-08:00

I've seen the way you move, girl

I've seen the way you shake

I've seen you lose it all, girl,

and I've seen you fucking baked

do the drugs help you at all?

do they take away the pain?

because I know they take it all

and I've watched you fall again

I'll watch you fall

photograph it all

show it to you later

so you can laugh it off

or maybe you won't

so pop another pill

so your social skill goes high

like the rest of you

take another ht

so when you hit the floor

you won't feel the fall

I'll watch you fall

photograph it all

show it to you later

so you can cry it off

oh, look, here's the one where you drove home stoned

and o, see, here's the one yous pent with him instead of me

oh, look, the red eye couldn't fix this one

because, oh, no, you were too far gone

your brown eyes are red again

like the blood that used to pump through your veins

and your white skin

is black and blue again

like ocean that you're jumping into again

I've seen the way you move, girl,

I've seen the way you shake

I've seen the way you lose it all

and I've seen you fuckin baked

I've seen how your lungs must look

I see the way you feel

So instead of fixing up yourself

go take another hit

That girl could move

2008-12-11T20:50:00.000-08:00

you used to move the way that no one else could

you used to dance the way only you could

you used to have a heart, bigger than anyone else's

you used to love the way only you could

but I beat that out of you

and you never even thanked me

because you beat it out of me too

so here's my thank you note

you used to glow like a full moon

now you're dim like the lights in your room

you used to control the way you trained yourself to

you used to love until you gave up on you

i saw where the water met the air

they had a little conversation about the pair

rolling in the waves

"see those two, now that's love," the water said

the air replied "if that's love, I won't let you rain on them from above."

well he did, the air was right,

pulled itself out of my lungs

and dropped the ocean on us forever, through this nightmare

you used to swim, the water made it's way around you

you used to move the way that only you could

you used to breathe, the air was yours as you would

and now you smoke till you can't remember what was special about you

But do you remember me?

I was there when you lost what you had

do you remember me?

I was there when you said you lost your best friend

do you remember me?

I was there when you gave up on yourself

do you remember me? do you remember me?

I said I'll be there until the very end.

But I don't remember me

I would ask for your help

but I've seen the way you lie

I would ask for help but I've seen the way I die

Do you remember me?

Somnolence

2008-12-10T17:14:00.001-08:00

I decided to try this little experiment

but the only guinea pig I had was me

I'm excited to say that it's working

and it's taken all my feelings from me

I said "do you really think I need those?"

"Son, from the look in your eyes to to the scars on your arms, I do."

Well, maybe I shouldn't have told you

"but you did and this is where it got you."

so I thought, why no

there's nothing wrong with me

now I know, now I see

everything I ever did was a lie

every breath I ever took

meant nothing in anyone's eyes

I'm pretty sure, I just lost my soul

can you see me in the mirror?

because I'd like to know that I'm still here

I don't believe you, I don't believe me

I don't believe in you, I don't believe in you anymore

I said "do you really think I need those?"

"Son, from the smell on your breath to to the blood in your lungs, I do."

"Well, maybe I shouldn't have told you"

"but you did and this is where it got you."

I should have asked if they'd take away my soul

because now I'm sure they do

are you real? is this even happening?

My eyes are open but I just can't see you

You're either too bright or I'm too messed up

I should have asked if they'd take away my soul

because now I'm sure they do

Dysthymia

2008-12-10T14:34:00.000-08:00

Hey, I'm the crazy one here.

what did I do that made you think I need that?

was it all those little cuts?

was it because of that slut?

was it all those little cuts?

because I don't think they mean this much

Hey I'm the crazy one here.

oh, not anymore, not anymore you're not

you'll be better off with these

better off than when you're not

but now I don't know what is real

and I don't know what is fake

hiding just around the corner...

hey, I was the crazy one here

what happened?

why can't I bring myself to be sad?

I know I should be but they just don't let me anymore

why can't i bring myself to be mad?

Mad at you and all your games and all your fucking lies?

I know I should but they just don't let me anymore

taking over my mind

taking over my style

they said it was mild

taking over my mind

taking over

this fucked up state of mind

at least I remember how I used to know her

at least I remember... i was the crazy one here

oh, not anymore, not anymore you're not

you'll be better off with these

better off than when you're not

but now I don't know what's real

and I don't know what's fake

hiding just around the corner...

hiding right around the corner is

a monster wearing your clothes

my, what large teeth you have

why, the better for tearing you apart

but my dear, you've already done that part

can't you see all the hurt?

i'm already in pieces, laying on the bed,

the little blue pieces laying on my bed

they're your fault, you've already done this

you've already done this

and i need to take more because they're not helping

because they're not helping

you're still here, i need to take more

I miss you

2008-12-07T01:28:00.000-08:00

i don't sleep much these days

the nightmares keep me up

all the ones where you're far away

all the nightmares keep me up

I think I'm losing myself

and I know you're feeling it too

I know you think you've lost yourself

all the drugs and alcohol and all the deep blues

turn that frown upside down

because I think I found myself in you

Did you know I've been known to down a pack?

all the smoke in my lungs fills up the space you left

wish you knew the pain in the attack

it leaves a bigger hole where the air was supposed to be

the city burns, pretty baby let's sit back

we can't save them now so let's watch it burn

who knew the smoke could be so romantic?

we can't save us now so let's let one burn

we'll share and watch our smoke get lost

in the burning black that used to be our home

did you know I knew about that pack?

all the smoke left a scar in the place we left

I guess you know the pain in this attack

it left a black hole where the people were supposed to be

they all smile and act like nothing's wrong

but we know, we saw, we saw it all

we know, we saw, we watched it burn down

so we'll smile and act like nothing's wrong

I think I'm losing myself

and I know you're feeling it too

I know you think you've lost yourself

all the drugs and alcohol and all the deep blues

turn that frown upside down

because I think I found myself in you

We'll be good, just as soon

as we get that alcohol

in our system

we'll be good, just as soon

as we get that oxygen

in our system

we'll sit back and watch it escape

crack another one

under this moonlit cityscape

we'll sit back and watch it burn

light another one

above this burning cityscape

I hope you like this

2008-12-06T21:23:00.001-08:00

She sad those words again

no, no, stop myself right there

start again from the beginning

it was a pretty night, anyway

it was a pretty night there

have I ever told you how much I've liked you?

I thought about you first when love was approached

I thought about you when I hung up the picture

the one that you drew that said you weren't wanted

then I said those words for the first time

poor broke, I've got nothing to keep you here

at least you had a good time anyway

as all the smoke filled the air

I did my hair just right

brushed my teeth about five times

shave the stubble against the grain

did you notice the whole time?

she said those words again

no, no, no

it was a pretty night anyway

when she said those words again

you drown out the thunder

2008-11-28T07:59:00.000-08:00

Grey skies, green eye smile for me
Have i ever told you the way you glow in the dark?
All the times I said I'd give up
all the nights I spent staying up
all the nights you spent telling me what a bad idea it was

you know just how far I can sink
and for some reason you still stand by me
say you will, say you will
and you know I will too
say you won't, say you won't,
I'll still stick to you like glue

grey skies, brown eye smile for me
have I ever told you how you shine in the dark?
there's no lights in here so could you please come here?
Everything around you lights up when you're near

now listen, precious, I know that things are hard
and settle, darling, you know I won't lie
things will stay rough
you're the toughest that i know, and you won't let this one tear you apart
you've been through worse and back
and you'll see your light when you remember your part

now listen, precious, I know that things are hard
and settle darling, you know I won't lie
I know what you're thinking and we both know it's not right
you know I've been there before and you didn't let me give up the fight
I know what you're thinking and you never wanted me to
so why wouldn't I extend that same courtesy to you?

grey skies, green eye smile for me
have i ever told you how you shine in the dark?
grey skies, brown eye smile for me
you'll find your spot with this
listen, precious, call it your brand new start

you used to say

2008-11-25T17:48:00.000-08:00

I've tried to keep a track of this
you always said you were the best
said this guitar's always had the best
your vocal chords said you had this

i've got this void to fill
you've got this voice to hear

feel the music dripping down your finger tips
bleeding out red from your wrist
feel it hit the ground like your last shred of love

i always said you were the best
so who's there to make up for this?
on the day that I wed will you be there
to tell me what I did wrong?
Like you did every other time?

i said i never knew of it
but i'm always keeping track on this
you said it was love
i said everything short of "you're a liar."

so feel it dripping off your finger tips
the way my hope dripped off the tip of your tongue

i've got this void to fill,
you've got this voice to hear
these screams got nothing to say
since there's nothing you want to hear

i tried to keep track of this
you always said you were the best
i wish you weren't right about it
but you've got all these songs playing for nothing

so pretend they mean it
pretend you care
pretend it means something
to someone somewhere
pretend you were right all along

so pretend you mean it
pretend they care
pretend it means nothing
to no one anywhere
pretend you were right all along

nothing irreparable has happened here

2008-11-25T17:46:00.001-08:00

I can't pretend to know what you're going through
and in all honesty I don't care
you had your chance to change your station
and you passed it up like a forgotten prayer

said it never really mattered if all you gave me were lies
and it still won't matter because you're not where my future lies

so drop your head to your pillow
let out a breath
you got through today
and you've got nothing left
what's the point in waking up
to a cold dark room
when your whole point of waking up
has left you for good

tell your stories about the one who was right
go home at night and close your eyes
out of sight, out of mind, out of your big brown eyes
give a trite (excuse), see your plight, and give up the fight

excuse me miss, I think you dropped this on the ground
it looks like a list of reasons why you're not home bound
it's funny, I think that my name's at the top of it
bright bold letters say it better, at least you know who was right all along

Jennifer's Song

2008-11-21T15:10:00.000-08:00

I'm no philosopher,
light and death are none of my concern
I'm just a boy with a mic and a guitar
that was given to me to play to ease your heart
you're just a girl with a voice and a heart
that needs something like this to plan a new start

I'm this broken hearted boy
who's got all these bandaids to try
and as much as I bleed, you'd think my guitar'd have stained by now
and you're this lost and hurting girl
you've got plenty laid out to try
as much as you sing, I'd think your vocal chords would bleed by now

but these songs keep coming
and the words keep slipping
and I'm stuttering over vials of verbs

she said "why do you always ask the deepest questions?"
I said I'm no phiolosopher,
but there's things I care to know

So listen to these songs
because that's the best you'll get of me
the honest truth, always the the best
always hurts the most to say
maybe they'll help you get some sleep
have a dream, for once, for once
maybe they'll help ease your pain
have a break, for once, for once

so take what you want from this
i wrote it all for you
that what you can from this
but in the end, (love), know
(love, love, love, love, love, love)
I'll sing until it's true
take what you may from this
but int he end, (love), know,
(love, love, love, love, love, love)
it's all been done for you

all these words bleed and tell the truth
so don't think it's me singing when this is stuck inside your head
I own the words, but what they said is what you said
you needed to hear
I'm just a story teller
you're the one living a life
I'm just a reporter
breaking news against the background fires
I'm just a story teller
you're the one giving life
to all these songs
singing in front of all these fires

This is how you pretend you're a real girl

2008-11-20T11:28:00.000-08:00

I never loved you

The way that I said

You’re just a bad luck girl

Who wants to live like the rest

So call your boyfriend

Though he treats you like shit

Tell him how many hearts you’ve broken for him

You’re no stranger to lies and deceit

So why the hell are you glaring at me?

You never loved me

The way that you said

I’m just a loveless boy

Asleep like the rest

So I’ll call all my friends

And tell them about all the hearts you’ve broken for him

You said you know you made a mistake

Well that’s the first half of being right

So let’s see the rest

Well you ran back to him

And that’s the last half of anything I thought we had left

You know, you’re cute when you get that sly smile

The one that says your mind’s made up in a mile

But I’ll just sit here

Feign some denial

Because the only thing that’s real is your movie script style

And baby, you know how I feel

And you keep striking nails

Attempt to feel real

But it won’t work and let me tell you why

Everything you break just takes you further away

Everything you hurt just furthers the pain

So drown your sorrows in that broken bottle

There’s nothing I can say to make you swallow any harder

And let’s hope for once in your life

The alcohol makes you feel like you’ve done something right

So drown your sorrows in his broken hands

There’s nothing I could do to make you callous any faster

But let’s pray, for once in your life

The bruises are enough to make you feel alive

Cigarettes and Sutures

2008-11-18T19:58:00.000-08:00

sitting in the glow of the park lights

your last cigarette's smoke blows

like your last breath.

It's orange like the lights

it's orange like your mood

This is the part where I say something that makes you feel alive

but after times like these I have nothing left to say to you

you used to say you love me

and smile

and now you say it and wince

well baby I'm done with this

baby I'm done with you

and when we leave you'll know

sitting in the glow of the park lights

your last drag is done and we're in the night

here the day changes as fast as you gave up the fight.

and your eyes are shined over

but it's not from the drugs you ingested in the hope they'd make you feel alive

after times like these there's nothing left to take

I hear the birds in silence

in the frame of what you're about to say

and don't you think I knew that?

I'm only here cause of the nicotine in the air

not to hear old news about your new boy

so drop the smoke in a way that makes me smile.

watch it creep out your lips like the words of a lost child

I said the only reason I wouldn't be in your life is if you chose that path

well, you've been walking forever so why am I still holding your hand?

You're a liar, but I'm ok with that.

2008-11-17T22:20:00.001-08:00

She said you had a head on your shoulders

and it looks like she were right

she said you were looking for love

but you're looking too hard

there was a time when you'd let me in on things

and now its too far gone

now i won't lecture

because you've been here before

but i won't cross my fingers

cause you're walking out that door

and now you're back into his arms again?

control, manipulating your hands again?

am i even in your thoughts again?

painful, i know, manipulating your words again

suddenly everything has changed again

you gave me hope

of a time better spent

now it's breathe or choke

and you're gasping for that oxygen

I'm done bleeding over you

just thought I'd let you know

because it's obvious you're done

breathing over me

don't worry babe, I know

Except this never happened.

2008-11-17T09:27:00.000-08:00

Remember that joke you used to tell me?

The one where you said that you still loved me?

Let me tell you,

Before I caught you laughing I

hung on to those words like they were oxygen

I breathed them in and breathed them out

but that was before I breathed curses under them

Remember that joke you used to tell?

The one about that boy who loved you?

That was a good one too,

except for all the nights spent lying under you

with you lying to my face

I breathed those words in, in and out

but that was before everything I found out...

I'm waiting for the punch line

as you're laughing with all your friends

I think that when I get it

I won't think it's nearly as funny as them

And that's not ok, but I'll say it is

because i like the way you smile

Remember when you got my hopes up?

And crushed them under your heel?

That wasn't too funny, and not all that clever,

but you'll know that when I repay the way I feel

They say an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind

but a heart for a heart means nothing

when your heart died years ago

They say an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind

but a heart for a heart means nothing

when your heart is as cold as the stone above my bed

I'm waiting for the punch line

as you're laughing with all your friends

I think that when I get it

I won't think it's nearly as funny as them

And that's not ok, but I'll say it is

because i like the way you smile

The love that you gave up on

all that love you left

Won't be here if you decide you want me back.

I'll move on, no more waiting

for you to say that shit again

Remember the joke I told?

The one about leaving you out in the cold?

Well, I think it'll be funny

when I'm watching you through the window sill

And maybe you will and maybe you won't

But I do hope you appreciate the irony I've built up

because I like the way you smile

Remember all the jokes we told each other?

Well, they're hers and mine now.

Remember the way we fit across your sheets?

Well we fit even better now

They said something about salts in wounds

and I'm hoping for them to form

so I can show you how this burns

"You Better Buy A One Way Ticket And A Moving Van"

2008-11-15T21:49:00.000-08:00

You're gonna get on that flight tonight
and the only thing I can say is "don't forget me"
I've got this feeling you will
and I can't bear to take that with me

you were scared
i know, i know, i know
and you needed hands
i know, i know, i know
but i hope you see
i hope, i hope, i hope,
that mine are a better fit than his

in this moment you can't move
and its something wish you could
i'll stay here and fucked up for you
my eyes were red all night for you
i told them it was just the smoke
but really, this couldn't even come close

so go ahead
think i'm treating you better
in all honesty
it's just what you deserve
so go ahead
think him the better kisser
in all honesty
you haven't felt what you deserve

so go ahead
because in all honesty
just go ahead
in all honesty
i just hope you're happy
i mean go ahead
in all honesty
just go ahead
in all honesty
i can't help but hope
you choose me

you're gonna get on that flight tonight
and the only thing I have is
"call me when you get there"
maybe he'll forget
and maybe then you'll see
but I've got this feeling you'll forget
and i can't take that with me

(forget all about me, again)

crossed fingers, broken hearts
remember the way we fell apart?
remember all the chances in your heart?
lucky pennies, shooting stars
do you know what i wished for
in november nights?
i hope, i hope, i hope,
i hope you meant all those things you said

and I know, I know, I know,

you waited years just for this part

throwing quarters, little dippers
i hope you meant it when you said

i love you
and when you told me that it was over
i died
at least a little on the inside
i lost what you had given me
it was just too painful, see
it was just too plain to see
and maybe maybe maybe
when you land
you'll look him in the eyes
and maybe maybe maybe
when you land
you'll understand
what i've been saying all along

you waited years

then you gave up on me

i waited years

and i'm still waiting to see

you waited years

you were much to scared

i waited years

knowing soon you'll be brave

you're gonna get off that flight tonight

and when you do

i hope you think of me

"If this is a party, where the fuck is the rum?"

2008-10-26T22:14:00.000-07:00

why can't i just let this go?

"I needed to get that off my chest," she said,

and there's so many thing I want to say to that

why can't I just let this go?

I'll just bottle up these heartaches

I've got all the empty bottles I need

vicodin and captain and all their good friends

these cigarettes are solace and the alcohol burns warm

like your touch should have in the breaking dawn

what would I have to say

for you to say it back?

(if I said I need you

would you say it back?)

Is there anything anything

I could say I could say

to make you want me back?

(If you said you needed me

it wouldn't bring me back)

I hate that I'm questioning

I hate what I've become

maybe that makes

for better positioning

when I finally jump

Aaron said it best

in the sound of separation

"I was lying when I said that I was looking up"

They've written all my best

lines, and I'm lost in the desperation

what would I have to say

for you to say it back?

(if I said I need you

would you say it back?)

Is there anything anything

I could say I could say

to make you want me back?

(If you said you needed me

it wouldn't bring me back)

is this what you want from me?

Is that how i want to be?

what on earth could I even say?

is this how you want to be?

what is it you want from me?

why on earth would you even say?

I hate that I'm questioning...

I hate what I've become

I'm hoping this makes better knots

for when I finally jump

what would I have to say

for you to say it back?

(if I said I need you

would you say it back?)

Is there anything anything

I could say I could say

to make you want me back?

(If you said you needed me

it wouldn't bring me back)

Reflections are more dangerous than knives

2008-10-26T21:48:00.000-07:00

remember when your tastes were your own?

now you only taste like them

remember when your thoughts were your own?

now you only think of them

I'm waiting for one of you to show me

you're not like all the others

smoke your cigarettes

drink your alcohol

smile when they tell you what you like

I hated when you dismissed Cursive

you said print was more your style

and now the only thing you write in is cursive

and your ink of preference is lies

so write my pain in your red ink

and wait for it to seep into your nailbeds

you'll remember me always,

from the paint in your skin

to your sheets and your nightstand

I hated when you told me my eyes weren't as bright

and that indie just wasn't your style

now the only thing you do is scene yourself

and really, have you seen yourself?

I'm waiting for one of you to show me

that you're not like the others at all

smoke your cigarettes

drink your alcohol

smile at me when they tell you what you like

remember when your tastes were your own?

Now you only taste like them

remember when your thoughts were your own?

now you only think like them

6 Feet Under, But Oh So Charming

2008-10-23T23:19:00.001-07:00

face to sound and ears to the ground
you've got your roots all buried so deep
you've got everyone running around
face to ground and ears to the sound
you're just buried too deep
to ever be anywhere but homebound

got this town in your ears
and not in your heart, you say
and you say it all but you always stay
you just want to be new
to be clean and free and serene
you just want to be new

face to the grind and ears to the sound
they've got their roots all buried so deep
and they've got you running around
face to the sound, ears to the ground
they're buried to deep in you
for you to ever leave anything but underground

side by side, side by sound
conversation runs everything aground
you wanted anything but your face to the sound
got all these tastes winding and wound
around and around and around and around
your roots are just buried too deep
twisting around your neck in your sleep
get them under control before they tie you down
but you won't, and you can't, and you'll always lie

down

got this town in your ears
and not in your heart, you say
and you say it all but you always stay
you just want to be new
to be clean and free and serene
you just want to be new

want your friends like your friends want to feel
lie to yourself and say every thing's a heal
when you find out, when you find out about
you'll be too grown in to leave this town

methodic and melodic and wonderful

2008-10-10T23:27:00.000-07:00

She doesn't want to go to sleep

because she doesn't know what tomorrow keeps

and it's all such a blur

tomorrow's folds hold nothing for

and it's all such a blur

because tomorrow means nothing...

"I just need some direction

I just need some attention

I just need some affection

I just need anything"

she doesn't want to wake from sleep

because she's not sure what tomorrow keeps

and it's all such a blur

she knows tomorrow means new

and it's all such a blur

because tomorrow holds something

that she doesn't wish to hold

"i can't take the infection

and i don't like these injections

all i've got are these inflections

i could use anything"

it'll be neutral

she says

like the acids and bases

that form her thoughts

it'll be neutral

she says

like the notes and breaths

that form her words

"I just need some direction

I just need some attention

I just need some affection

I just need anything

"i can't take the infection

and i don't like these injections

all i've got are these inflections

i could use anything"

and it's all such a blur

to her to her to her

and it's all such a blur

to her to her to her

and it's all such a blur

quickie

2008-10-09T22:22:00.001-07:00

I've got this problem, see

when she's not here with me,

i get this feeeeeeeeling.

it's like i've been lost at sea

and there's something, something missing from me

but as soon as she comes back you'll see

but oh no, she's gone for good this time

she's not heading back this way

oh, no, she's gone for good for good for good

and there's nothing that can make her stay

so I've got this problem, see

because no one's here with me

I keep getting this feeeeeeling

I know far gone I can be

and I know exactly what's missing, missing from me

because I know she's not coming back to me

because

oh, no, she's gone for good this time

she's not heading back this way

oh, no, she's gone for good for good for good

and there's nothing I can say

this guitar's got your voice

and these strings are your vocal chords

and every note I play

and every word I sing

just reminds remind reminds me

that's she's staying staying away

You know how far gone I can be

so I hope somehow this makes you see

that there's no more room for "sorrys"

I hope somehow this makes you see

that you're the only, only girl for me.

wash away this desert town

2008-09-29T18:20:00.000-07:00

do you remember when we were younger?

We used to think we were untouchable

but as we grew we learned to be smarter

and now we know there's no such thing as

untouchable

we're not so

untouchable

anymore

do you remember when you were younger?

you thought the earth spun way too fast

you said "why can't we slow down for just this summer?"

and now it's spinning way to slow for you so

slow

the earth is moving way too slow

for you

slow

space just isn't growing fast enough

for you

we're just too

slow

i see the clouds

drowning out the light from the sun

and the only thing I think is

come and wash away this desert town

and it's getting darker

and the rain is falling down

and I can't help but say

please wash away this desert town

i remember all the things we used to say

from your rooftop in the summer

and all the games we used to play

before we jumped into the sky

remember all the ways you used to look into my eyes?

and all the ways you used to say the things that became lies?

so I know it's not in the way you looked at me

so I know it's not in the way you looked in me

it's all in the way you said

it's all in the way you said it

it's all in the way you said...

i see the clouds

drowning out the light from the sun

and the only thing I think is

come and wash away this desert town

and it's getting darker

and the rain is falling down

and I can't help but say

please wash away this desert town

so here's the rain

it can't wash your insides clean

but here's the rain

it'll douse your cigarette's flame

here's the wind

it'll blow your hair just the same

as the way he does when you're with him

maybe this will make you

remember what you said

i can only hope, i guess

remember what you said?

So I hope

the alcohol leaves sores upon your porcelain lips

and it cuts across your teeth like the blade across my skin

maybe for once you'll remember, remember me

do you remember when we were younger?

we used to think we were untouchable

but as we grew, I learned you're a liar

and now I know there's no such thing as

untouchable

trite phrases, fresh faces

2008-09-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

My sheets still smell like you

A vague reminder of a night spent

Wrapped around each other

With something in our eyes, I couldn’t tell you what it was

Though I’d like to think I knew

Is this the way out?

Well the next time I need to tell you something

I’ll make sure I know exactly what to say

Because I know everything (But you know more)

And I know what makes you tick (But you know so much more)

And I know the way your eyes look (But you know more)

When you’re crying on the inside (And you’re around no more)

My bed still has your impressions

And I have them too

The ones you left between my sheets

And the ones you left here in my head

A vague reminder of our last time spent together

When you had something in your eyes

And I knew exactly what it was

Is this the way out?

You had a way out

Well the next time I need to tell you something

I’ll remember to pick my words and keep my distance

(I’ll let you pick the distance and I’ll keep your words)

Because you know everything

(it takes more)

And I don’t know anything

(it takes so much more)

But I know the way your eyes look

(We used to be so much more)

When you’re smiling on the inside

“I don’t have a reason for this”

“Do you want a reason for this?”

“I don’t think I can find a reason for it”

This is the way my sheets smell after you

Your arms around my neck

(My remeron replacement)

“I don’t have a reason for this”

Your lips against my skin

(My vicodin addiction)

“Do you want a reason for this?”

Your eyes attached to mine

(My Percocet prescription)

“I don’t think I have a reason for it”

“Let’s stop living in the past”

Well the next time I tell you something

I’ll remember to do it with your speed and keep it concise

And I’ll do my best to make sure I’m not spilling contrite across your bed sheets

With our meaningless lipsyncs

Is this the way out?

Is this…

Is this the way out?

We're both capable of the most terrible things

2008-09-23T22:34:00.000-07:00

I believe every word you say

I'm not going with you to our yesterday

every single word you say

only takes us back to where we were then

but at least now I can say

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Remember when you promised me you'd stay?

It's the one that started it all

I remember when you promised you'd stay

it's like a promise to take you away

i still hold on to the words you gave me

i think they're gonna be the last

i'll keep them close, just so you know

like they're gonna be the last

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

I woke up from a dream

I woke up from a nightmare

why are you not here?

I woke up from a dream

you said it's not a dream

I woke up from a nightmare

you said it's not a nightmare

but you're still not here

stay with me tonight

and I'll still believe today

i was the one

if you stay with me tonight

you know I'll believe today

I was the one you wanted to stay

Don't wanna breathe

but I've got all these songs to sing

Don't wanna believe

but I've got all these words to say

stay with me til we need to leave

I've got all these things to lay

til the morning's fray fades away

Now I know

There's no way

Now I see

There's no way

Now I know

There's no way

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Dismantled, Broken, Golden

2008-09-23T19:42:00.000-07:00

i had that dream again

the one where everything was amazing

and it all worked like it should

then I woke up again

and everything was a terrible mess

and it all fell apart if it could

if I could

I'd hang up these vocal chords for good

and let the calluses on my fingers heal

all the damage they've withstood

Here's another song to throw away

wash it down the drain

you're too busy to listen

with all your new friends

and all the better sounds they make

Will you even know it's for you?

If I didn't ever tell

I'd like to think you'd somehow know

but I'm guessing the buzzing is much too strong for good

Did you even want another string of words

held together by this old guitar?

You don't have the time to answer these marks

so I'm doubting you'll even care

if I could

I'd hang up these vocal chords for good

and let the calluses in my fingers heal

all the damage they've withstood

If I could

I'd take you for you for good

and let the calluses on our hearts heal

all the damages they've withstood

but you won't let me

no you won't let me

no you won't let me, let me in

you won't let me

you won't let me let me in

If I could

I'd hang up these vocal chords for good

and let the calluses on my fingers heal

all the damage they've withstood

If I could

I'd take you for you for good

and let the calluses on our hearts heal

all the damages they've withstood

But I can't

until I sing the words so good

that it forever heals all the damage

you've gone through

I can't

because you won't let me love you

until I get the lines down good

and until then, I know

Oh, I know,

that you won't let me in

RE: broken hearts, and how to fall apart

2008-09-20T20:31:00.000-07:00

I'm asking the pharmacist for a little bit of everything

you gave me this condition, stricken,

but there's no prescription for a broken heart

The alcohol burns but it seems like it works

when flirts turn to words and all my words are spurned

he said "I'm sorry son, but we don't have what you need.

The girl who did this to you is the only one you need to see."

So I told him, "Doctor, doctor, you don't understand, see,

she's not done with me just yet, and I'm scared to be around."

so did I learn anything from this night of written dreams?

No, I can't say that I have.

did you gain anything from turning down my screams?

no, I doubt you did

So I don't think I'll ever come back down

it hurts a lot, but it hurts worse to see you

so I don't think I'll ever come back down

because your words burn worse than you know

he said "I'm sorry son, but we don't have what you need.

The girl who did this to you is the only one you need to see."

So I told him, "Doctor, doctor, you don't understand, see,

she's not done with me just yet, and I'm scared to be around."

my eyes simply cannot take the beating

they get from knowing you're not looking for me

and my brain is wracked with concern

that you're not concerned about me

So I'm asking the pharmacist for a little bit of everything

something, anything, to numb the pain

there's no prescription for a broken heart, it seems

but the things I'm taking now seem to dull the sense and the dreams

he said "I'm sorry son, but we don't have what you need.

The girl who did this to you is the only one you need to see."

So I told him, "Doctor, doctor, you don't understand, see,

she's not done with me just yet, and I'm scared to be around."

Last night, the desert froze

2008-09-19T22:01:00.000-07:00

they always play a slow song

when my breath is hanging in the air

outside your house, it's cold as hell

and they always play a slow song

I'm saying goodbye in the tires on the street

and I'm saying hello to all the people I'll never meet

I'm ready to leave you and all you are behind

but every time I try...

they always play a slow song

when my breath is hanging in the air

outside your house, it's cold as hell

and they always play a slow song

It's not in the way you told me

it's all in the way your eyes shone

it's not in the way you said it

it's all in the way you looked at me

This is my last cigarette

for another ten minutes or so

I'm wondering what you're thinking

and wishing you were here to hold

and as I'm leaving, I'm giving up again

It's just not worth all the time and the pain

I tell myself, hoping this time that it's true

but just as I'm leaving,

they always play a slow song

when my breath is hanging in the air

outside your house, it's cold as hell

and they always play a slow song

Cheesy McCheeserton (?)

2008-09-18T20:20:00.001-07:00

when I told you

that I was a sucker for romance

I would like you to know I meant it

but I don't think you got it

and I guess that's my penance

and my penchant for the advance

you're just a mess, you said

and I guess you meant it.

you've got this problem with nice guys

and loving the bad ones

and getting hurt in the process

but I'm telling you babe, you're never second best

she said, "I'll give you a kiss and sing you a song,

anything you wish as long as you'll say nothing's wrong."

So I got my kiss but so far no song

and I can't honestly tell you that nothing's wrong

you're the sweetest of sweet

and an angel with hidden wings

but you're not mine to see

you're not mine to see

so here's your letter

it's short and filled with wishes for better

it's short and you'll never read it, ever

so here's your letter

it's sweet but it's got a taste of bitter

I'll never send it, it's not at all clever

and it's lacking the depth I see in your eyes

she said, "I'll give you a kiss and sing you a song,

anything you wish as long as you'll say nothing's wrong."

So I got my kiss but so far no song

and I can't honestly tell you that nothing's wrong

car rides in cursive

2008-09-07T22:15:00.000-07:00

these nights mean the most

when you're riding behind me

and avoiding all the smoke

we all know i've got problems

but you still hang around and i know

you'll be there when I fall down

so play that music like you do

play the one you know I like

we've got these shows to do

and only so much time

before we leave the stage

so play that last song

you know the one

who would have thought

you'd have friends like this by your side?

when the times get hard

you'll figure out who's got the time

and who's just there to take up light

who would have thought

you'd get friends like this helping through the night?

when you get lonely

know i'll be there to help you pass the time

and you know we'll steal the spotlight

these car rides are written in cursive

across our sleeves, next to the hearts we wear

like badges that remind us of the

times we shared

the emperor's walking down the street

see how they all bow at his feet?

he's calling to the stars to watch them fall out of line

and he's got them right where he needs

the only things in this world

that are worth holding on to

are the things we cherish most

from all the friends we hold so close

so hold on to them through the pain and all the noise

and I'll tell you once

they'll be there with you enjoying the night

and they'll be there when you've got the noose too tight

who would have thought

you'd have friends like this by your side?

when the times get hard

you'll figure out who's got the time

and who's just there to take up light

who would have thought

you'd get friends like this helping through the night?

when you get lonely

know i'll be there to help you pass the time

and you know we'll steal the spotlight