I'll start to worry when I'm dead

"come on out of your cave and into the city, i said, a come on, out of your cave, and oh, into the city..."


so maybe I could use blogger for actually posting blogs and not just lyrics/poems. eh, worth a shot.

I guess trying new things can be fun. Sure, most people would be all "well duh dickass," but I used to be the kind of person who wouldn't try new things and just kinda stuck to my own thing. Last night alone I tried a bunch of new things and I'm so happy that I did. It was ana amazing night and there's nothing else to it. btw, calamari = pretty tasty.

so, here's the point. if you read this, I'm counting it as a nonverbal contract, and by you reading the previous phrase "nonverbal contract" you're agreeing to it.

Go out today and do something new. Something you've always wanted to do and just never did. I'm going to. I'm nervous as hell. And if you are, too, find someone special to do it with. This is also what I'm doing. I'm scared but excited for it too. But I know being with someone helps out. I mean, come on, I tried calamari and liked it.

hey, this is a contract, you agreed, go do it.

My heart tried to explode (in a good way)

you walked in the room
i was still outside and my heart skipped out of tune
you made your rounds, hugs to everyone
ray of sunshine in this dark cold night

i'll admit, I almost dropped my cigarette
well tonights no different than any other night,
same good friends, same good time
how do you do this to me?

all the nicotine isn't helping my breathing
but the real reason is you sitting here
have i told you have pretty eyes? (no, that's dumb)
did i mention i dig your styel? (no, that's dumb)

i'll admit, i almost dropped my cigarette
well tonight's no different than any other night
same good friends, same good time
how do you do this to me?

is it so much to ask that you don't mess with my breathing?
you already have my heart ready to explode
although I think it's amazing that you're sitting right here
maybe i'll work up the nerve to talk
maybe i'll say something clever, sweep you off your feet?
casanova's got nothing on me, i think,
as i ask you to dinner instead

Blend No. 27

do you ever think of me?
all this smoke, these cigarettes,
do you even think of me?
if not could you let me fade to obscurity?
but if so could you just....please... tell me?

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd just about die

well hey thanks for coming to my show
did you know one of those songs i played for you?
i'm cheesy but you, you're soft and only,
and baby you, you're lost and loney,
and only you, well you're just like heaven
and it'll be worth going to prison
if that got a smile out of you

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd swear to be alive

i'd swear i wasn't going anywhere
but i'm not giving up on you
so i'll pretend i'm winning you over
if you won't give up either

do you ever think of me?
all this smoke, these cigarettes?
do you even think of me?

do you ever think of me?
have another 27, sweetie,
do you even think of me?

I brought you coffee at work

to say everything i never could

at least you thought it was sweet, and I'm a dork,

but I just knew what you'd say, you would

i just can't stand to say goodbye, babe

and everything i'd ever say you already heard

what else could i do to make you stay?

besides pretty songs and compliments?

smoke breaks in the middle of the night
hospital rooftops talking about fights
if i could watch the sunrise with you
i'd swear to be alive

have another 27, sweetie, do you ever think of me?

"I'm fucked up in stereo"

what's the point in living when living's lost it's love?
what's the point in loving when loving's lost it's life?

all at once the music stopped,
you stepped into the room.
everybody saw and dropped
you're a walking breathing time bomb
just waiting to go off...

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and it shouldn't be harder than this

all at once the record skipped,
you messed us up again (dammit girl)
come on out of your cave and into the light
and you fucked up the beat again

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and just let her slip away

well i know
i'm falling into the radio
they always play a slow song
and it's fucking me up in stereo
so here's your life
in black and white
i wrote it out for you
made sure details were covered
only you could know
so listen to the radio
listen to my songs
tell your friends they're about you
before i sing all your wrongs

well i thought it would be so much harder than this
just let it slip, what happens happens
and it's all you know exists

Pretend this isn't about you.

well i hope you regret
everything you said
and if i'm lucky you'll live to see the day the day I wed
cry yourself to sleep
in your broken bed,
let her wake you up, she'd rather see you instead...

i'm done with being alone
and I'm doin with you being gone
it was sweet to be wrapped around your finger
oh the things i've seen only make this sweeter

all the skin i lost on you
only grew back stronger
strong enough to resist your touch
and your lying laughter

if you made the wrong decision,
why don't you try and fix it?
oh, that's right, i forgot, you're just scared to prove it
but don't think i'll forget
all the things you told me
you always said you loved me so
I'll believe it if i see....

i'm done with being alone
and I'm doin with you being gone
it was sweet to be wrapped around your finger
oh the things i've seen only make this sweeter

you must not <3 me

she said she hurts the nice guys,
and maybe she was right
she she loved him more, and I think that's alright,

because as long as you're smiling, babe, I'm smiling too.
as long as you're smiling babe, well I'm smiling too.

I'll construct my songs
so you can deconstruct my thoughts
they're still yours the way there were when you taught me

that as long as I'm smiling, babe, you're smiling too.
and as long as I'm smiling, dear well you're smiling too.

tell me all the things you have,
girl you know i'll listen
and tell me all the things you keep,
girl you know i'll keep them

She said stay positive, and I think she was right
she said it'll work out then and I think she was right,

because if you're smiling, babe, then I'm smiling too
and I know if you're smiling, then I'm smiling too

in no time, there'll be one less boy
singing sogns because he's lonely
he knows she doesn't love him
but she taught him more than any lover ever could
and he knows that she loves him in a way
that no other ever could

This song is for a beautiful girl

i'd like to ask yuou a favor, dear,
one I don't know if you can do
you see you've got my breath trappd again
and I need it to talk to you
You steal it everytimes I hear your voice
and you don't ever give it back

well here's the plan, I'll fly you to the stars
We'll swim in the big dipper
and we'll camp somewhere on mars
if you promise, if you swear
that you'll be mine

I threw you up into the sky once before
and you fell into my arms again
so baby, we'll try this once more

because I'm driving too fast on this old desert highway
driving to see your face, hear your voice against
the sounds of the new freeway

so here's the plan, I'll fly you to spain
ad we'll watch the lovers dance
we'll own the hotel until the day that we go back
if you promise, if you'll swear
that you'll be mine

you said, "well come see me,
let me see what I've been missing."
I'll stay anywhere you want to be
and show you what you've been missing
Let me take you by the hand,
ask you what's in your big plans
then i'll tell you mine
since they're all in your hands

And I'll say "here's the plan
we'll drive until there's no more roads
we'll see the ocean span the world
and we'll lay low, or way up high
as long as you promise, if you swear that you'll be mine"

Right after I wrote this, she said she didn't love me

well this is all new territory

for me

you've got this hold,

this grip on me

your eyes are full of metaphors that I can't even comprehend

so I got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

and I got nothing on this on this on this

you make me rhyme

in ways I can't remember

you've had this hold on me 

ever since september

so I'll just close my eyes

remember times

close my eyes

remember times

so i got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

so I got nothing on this

and I got nothing on you

if I could make this last forever

this one night, with no fights

and the clouds are trying to rain

if I could make this last forever

this one night, the dark skies

and you're shielding me from all the pain

so i got nothing on this

but you make me happier than I've been

so I got nothing on this

and I got nothing on you

I'm done with your shit

i thought you'd be done with this by now

but I guess you'd rather play some more

but I'm done with this, baby, I'm done with you

because I can't play your games anymore

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

i've never felt so used

as when you lean on my shoulder

like I'm the only thing you need

what you used to need

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

get away from, get away from me

I can't breathe your poison breath,

can't kiss your poison lips

so get away from, get away from me

I can't see your evil eyes

and I can't taste your evil lies

get away from, get away from me

well I let you in again

and let me tell you, dame,

it was a mistake

and I let you in again

and let me tell you

it was a mistake

This is probably the last song about you

I called you up, said I missed you like hell.

You replied, that's great but well,

he'll be home soon.

I said I hope he's better and

you stopped, you paused, you stopped.

Well I hope you're happy now,

because this is the last song.

This is the last song.

I called you up, said let's get some lunch.

You replied, boy I miss your touch

I miss your kiss.

I guess he wasn't better

because you stopped, you thought, you stopped.

Now you're crying on my shoulder

in your own little world

Now you've crashed on the shoulder

tiny white nails in your world

So savor this song, 

savor my voice,

savor your choice,

cause this is the last song.

Cause this is the last song.

And I hope you're happy now

cause this is the last song

this is the last one about you

this is the last song

Short lived like your love

cause this is the last song

Dark and slow like it's your own

so this is the last song

this is the last song.