Relapse

You used to be worth more than this to me
but now your voice just isn't enough
to stop me from becoming me
and I’m sure I’m just in the rough

surprise, I wasn't who you thought I was
surprise me, I'll show you how we do it

I'm more likely to try this than I've let on
I'm sorry if you don't like it but
you've really got no say in this part...
surprise me, I'll show you how we do it do it...

oh, sweet chemical frustration
it's ok, I said, we're all doing just fine
and as I tipped another bottle back
I started to believe the things I said...

when I remember all the times you stopped the bleeding
I think it's safe to say you've saved my life
but now you're no longer mine...
and I can't let you interfere this time

surprise, I wasn’t what you thought you want
surprise me, I’ll show you how we play it around here…

but don't you worry, dear
I hope you hold no fear
I made sure the needle was clean
right before I went to sleep
it's not a big deal
so don't worry dear,
close your heart, hold no fear
I made sure the edge was sharp
right before I called you back

what a big surprise, I wasn’t what you thought you want
what a big surprise, nothing’s the way you said because you can’t again

so we decided we should never have started
because now we just have to stop
i guess that's just the way that this goes
it's just unfair from my eyes to yours
but i just dreamt this recipe

oh, daring chemical concoction
We’ll try two parts grief and one part jealousy
A dash of sweet vindication
And drink it down with the rest of your memories





and if you got the news
some boy you knew had died tonight
would I see you in the pews?
would you bring him and ruin our last goodbye?

hey baby thanks a lot,
surprise, that's what I thought.