thank you, Tomas Kalnoky, that's what I needed to hear.

here's to sleeping pills and potions

and all the nights you forgot about me

all the nights you forgot about a boy

that you're not in love with any more

you've got me feeling my worst again

and you didn't even try this time

you've got this blade against my skin

and you're not even pushing and i'm already bleeding

Im already bleeding again

how long before I break?

I've been counting the minutes and counting the grievances

you build me up to watch me fall

and take all my heartache along with the grace of nothing at all

i'm nothing at all

you've got me feeling my worst again

and you didn't even try this time

but I've got my drinks and all my sins

you're not even pushing and I'm already falling

I'm already falling again

here's to hoping I even the score

I wish I was half as capable of what you are

but I'm just lying on the floor

desperate as ever and dying to hear you more

and I told you not to worry 

not to worry about me

don't you worry about a boy 

who you're not in love with any more

you've got me feeling my worst again

and you're not even trying this time

desperate as ever, like I said

I'm holding tight to this pen

hoping it explodes and leaves lying on the floor

you said you were making plans

and I didn't even realize before the end

that it was too late to see your face

or to see me ever standing again