I'm not saying you're a liar... you just don't tell the truth

let's burn this city down

we'll need matches and gasoline

I think the fire might cleanse this desert town

We can drive home by the lights of the burning tires

but you'll still be there,

leaning on a wall with a cigarette in your hand

but you'll still be there

gracing them with a silhouette where you used to stand

And I never said I would stop this drinking

because it's what keeps me going

and if it's ok with you, I'll pass out on justin's couch

because going home only reminds me of you

And I never said that I was perfect

but I changed for you and proved it

I did it how you wanted

and you did him how you wanted, too

but you'll still be there,

leaning on a wall with a cigarette in your hand

but you'll still be there

gracing them with a silhouette where you used to stand

this life is certainly not certain

and I know you caught that when you decided 

to spend the night with him instead of me

But now I hope you'll see what you're missing

see what you've been wanting in a boy an a guitar

But I know you won't see what you've been missing

You won't see what you been doing to a boy and his heart

this life is certainly not certain

but I'll see you around, because

but you'll still be there,

leaning on a wall with a cigarette in your hand

but you'll still be there

gracing them with a silhouette where you used to stand

I never said that I would stop this drinking

because that's what keeps me going

the drunk hours I don't spend on you are the hours when I can sleep

but the drunk hours I don't spend on you are the ones I wish I was

A Friend To All Is A Friend To None

Well I've got issues from here to minnesota

and I coulda sworn, woulda thought I told you but

If you're asking me these things then I guess I didn't

or maybe you're just so high that you fucking missed it again

Well I hope you learn the words

I hope you sing along

I hope you write this in your diary

pouring tears all over my songs

these things, these words just don't register

you're dyslexic when you're drunk

and now you're taking it back, no returns

when you've torn all the tags off and you're soaking wet from all the scorn,

and all the wars, that you wake up just to fight every night

well I hope you learn the words

and I hope you sing along

I hope you scribble this on napkins

coffee stains on every one of my songs

take another hit, girl, take another

and when you hit the floor

you move your feet like no other

well take another hit, girl, take another

and when you hit the floor

you'll stay passed out til you're sober

so tell a story

tell a lie

tell a secret after you said that you'd keep it

smile some more

lie with him tonight

I'll tell all your secrets, you better wish that you had kept that

trying not to fall into that same cliche

it's what I'm best at, it's what I'm best at

and when I don't, I hope you see the day

when you wish you were right here by my side

Well I hope you learn the words

I hope you sing along

I hope you write this in your diary

pouring tears all over my songs

well I hope you learn the words

and I hope you sing along

I hope you scribble this on napkins

coffee stains on every one of my songs

Well I hope you learn my words

and I hope you play along

I hope you write this on your hands

and remember it forever long

whiskey with a shot of apathy

the music is slipping out

dripping down my finger tips

it's colored red like blood

but blue and black like you

it hits the ground in crescendos and quarters

and leaves the colors there to wash away alone

this isn't a love song, but you can have it anyway

it might still be about if you know the right things to say

bleed it out of me, like everything else

fuck it out of me, like everything else

close your eyes and lie to me, like everyone else

like everything else you ever said

was just a little white lie,

harmless story,

perfect alibi

and even though I see right through

I'm waiting for your next lie

The music's bleeding out of me 

(you have this way with me)

the color's fading out

(you had your way with me)

excuses falling out

(i thought you loved me)

now the makeup's washing off

(i hope he's better than me)

because this isn't a love song

but you can have it anyway

it could still be about you

if you know the right things to say

bleed it out of me, like everything else

fuck it out of me, like everything else

beat it out of me like everyone else

the music is slipping out

dripping down to you

another wasted song

and another wasted verse on you

High Desert Liars

you're this terrible piece of art

tragedy painted on your heart

you want all these great things

but no one ever seems to see that part

because you're living in a lame excuse

another wasted breath on you

obtuse, the angle, that you lie

but stretch  your spine it's almost summertime

and trust me you'll know when you get  there

Cali has this way with you

and trust me, you'll see when you get scared

who's really on his way to pick up you

because you're living in a lame excuse

another wasted breath on you

obtuse, the angle, that you lie

but stretch  your spine it's almost summertime

play your little games

lie down with whoever's close

and I'll be on that train again

playing for whoever's close

Cali has this way with you

so drink another bottle

what's it gonna hurt to?

While I smoked the road

I watched it burn

kept my body warm

when you refused to

Cali has this way with you

all done up with no one to take you

but you're sleeping it off

show them who's boss

because they've always had their way with you

because you're living in a lame excuse

another wasted breath on you

obtuse, the angle, that you lie

but stretch  your spine it's almost summertime

"Are you still shaking?" "A little bit."

shhhhhhhh

hush little baby

let me tell you a story

about a boy who thought it was over

he used to hate, because it never felt right

and he did all in his power to change

he smoked too much and watched his heart explode

he cut himself open to ease the pressure in his veins

that's when he heard her say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these pills own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the pain inside won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these broken hearts bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if you help one person it'll all be worth it."

Shhhhhh

hush little lush

let me tell you a story 

about a girl the boy used to love

he broke her neck and in the attack 

left her bleeding on the pavement

she said he wouldn't change

even though he had

she filled all her empty spaces

with all the things she swore she wouldn't

that's when he heard her say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these pills own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the pain inside won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these broken hearts bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if you help one person it'll all be worth it."

She said he lied,

he said baby, you're right

but it doesn't give you the excuse

to give up your entire life

that's when she heard him say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these drugs own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the false friends won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these bloody noses bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if I help you fight back it'll all be worth it."

So listen listen listen

I'm sure you hear the crickets chirping

and all the birds are singing your song

so listen listen listen

I'm telling you that your life is worth living

and all the things you know that you did wrong

are all just milestones

showing you from where you came

and all these broken bones

and heart attacks

and nights that you spent wishing

just remind you of the day 

you realized everything would be ok.

because that's when he heard her say

"you've gotta take control

you can't let these pills own you anymore

you've gotta let go

because the pain inside won't help you stay afloat.

You've gotta take control

you can't let these broken hearts bleed anymore

you've gotta let go

because if you help one person it'll all be worth it."

Caricatures and scrapbooks

I've seen the way you move, girl

I've seen the way you shake

I've seen you lose it all, girl,

and I've seen you fucking baked

do the drugs help you at all?

do they take away the pain?

because I know they take it all

and I've watched you fall again

I'll watch you fall

photograph it all

show it to you later

so you can laugh it off

or maybe you won't

so pop another pill

so your social skill goes high

like the rest of you

take another ht

so when you hit the floor

you won't feel the fall

I'll watch you fall

photograph it all

show it to you later

so you can cry it off

oh, look, here's the one where you drove home stoned

and o, see, here's the one yous pent with him instead of me

oh, look, the red eye couldn't fix this one

because, oh, no, you were too far gone

your brown eyes are red again

like the blood that used to pump through your veins

and your white skin

is black and blue again

like ocean that you're jumping into again

I've seen the way you move, girl,

I've seen the way you shake

I've seen the way you lose it all

and I've seen you fuckin baked

I've seen how your lungs must look

I see the way you feel

So instead of fixing up yourself

go take another hit

That girl could move

you used to move the way that no one else could

you used to dance the way only you could

you used to have a heart, bigger than anyone else's

you used to love the way only you could

but I beat that out of you

and you never even thanked me

because you beat it out of me too

so here's my thank you note

you used to glow like a full moon

now you're dim like the lights in your room

you used to control the way you trained yourself to

you used to love until you gave up on you

i saw where the water met the air

they had a little conversation about the pair

rolling in the waves

"see those two, now that's love," the water said

the air replied "if that's love, I won't let you rain on them from above."

well he did, the air was right,

pulled itself out of my lungs

and dropped the ocean on us forever, through this nightmare

you used to swim, the water made it's way around you

you used to move the way that only you could

you used to breathe, the air was yours as you would

and now you smoke till you can't remember what was special about you

But do you remember me?

I was there when you lost what you had

do you remember me?

I was there when you said you lost your best friend

do you remember me?

I was there when you gave up on yourself

do you remember me? do you remember me?

I said I'll be there until the very end.

But I don't remember me

I would ask for your help

but I've seen the way you lie

I would ask for help but I've seen the way I die

Do you remember me?

Somnolence

I decided to try this little experiment

but the only guinea pig I had was me

I'm excited to say that it's working

and it's taken all my feelings from me

I said "do you really think I need those?"

"Son, from the look in your eyes to to the scars on your arms, I do."

Well, maybe I shouldn't have told you

"but you did and this is where it got you."

so I thought, why no

there's nothing wrong with me

now I know, now I see

everything I ever did was a lie

every breath I ever took 

meant nothing in anyone's eyes

I'm pretty sure, I just lost my soul

can you see me in the mirror?

because I'd like to know that I'm still here

I don't believe you, I don't believe me

I don't believe in you, I don't believe in you anymore

I said "do you really think I need those?"

"Son, from the smell on your breath to to the blood in your lungs, I do."

"Well, maybe I shouldn't have told you"

"but you did and this is where it got you."

I should have asked if they'd take away my soul

because now I'm sure they do

are you real? is this even happening?

My eyes are open but I just can't see you

You're either too bright or I'm too messed up

I should have asked if they'd take away my soul

because now I'm sure they do

Dysthymia

Hey, I'm the crazy one here.

what did I do that made you think I need that?

was it all those little cuts?

was it because of that slut?

was it all those little cuts?

because I don't think they mean this much

Hey I'm the crazy one here.

oh, not anymore, not anymore you're not

you'll be better off with these

better off than when you're not

but now I don't know what is real

and I don't know what is fake

hiding just around the corner...

hey, I was the crazy one here

what happened?

why can't I bring myself to be sad?

I know I should be but they just don't let me anymore

why can't i bring myself to be mad?

Mad at you and all your games and all your fucking lies?

I know I should but they just don't let me anymore

taking over my mind

taking over my style

they said it was mild

taking over my mind

taking over

this fucked up state of mind

at least I remember how I used to know her

at least I remember... i was the crazy one here

oh, not anymore, not anymore you're not

you'll be better off with these

better off than when you're not

but now I don't know what's real

and I don't know what's fake

hiding just around the corner...

hiding right around the corner is

a monster wearing your clothes

my, what large teeth you have

why, the better for tearing you apart

but my dear, you've already done that part

can't you see all the hurt?

i'm already in pieces, laying on the bed,

the little blue pieces laying on my bed

they're your fault, you've already done this

you've already done this

and i need to take more because they're not helping

because they're not helping

you're still here, i need to take more

I miss you

i don't sleep much these days

the nightmares keep me up

all the ones where you're far away

all the nightmares keep me up

I think I'm losing myself

and I know you're feeling it too

I know you think you've lost yourself

all the drugs and alcohol and all the deep blues

turn that frown upside down

because I think I found myself in you

Did you know I've been known to down a pack?

all the smoke in my lungs fills up the space you left

wish you knew the pain in the attack

it leaves a bigger hole where the air was supposed to be

the city burns, pretty baby let's sit back

we can't save them now so let's watch it burn

who knew the smoke could be so romantic?

we can't save us now so let's let one burn

we'll share and watch our smoke get lost 

in the burning black that used to be our home

did you know I knew about that pack?

all the smoke left a scar in the place we left

I guess you know the pain in this attack

it left a black hole where the people were supposed to be

they all smile and act like nothing's wrong

but we know, we saw, we saw it all 

we know, we saw, we watched it burn down

so we'll smile and act like nothing's wrong

I think I'm losing myself

and I know you're feeling it too

I know you think you've lost yourself

all the drugs and alcohol and all the deep blues

turn that frown upside down

because I think I found myself in you

We'll be good, just as soon

as we get that alcohol 

in our system

we'll be good, just as soon

as we get that oxygen

in our system

we'll sit back and watch it escape

crack another one 

under this moonlit cityscape

we'll sit back and watch it burn

light another one 

above this burning cityscape

I hope you like this

She sad those words again

no, no, stop myself right there

start again from the beginning

it was a pretty night, anyway

it was a pretty night there

have I ever told you how much I've liked you?

I thought about you first when love was approached

I thought about you when I hung up the picture

the one that you drew that said you weren't wanted

then I said those words for the first time

poor broke, I've got nothing to keep you here

at least you had a good time anyway

as all the smoke filled the air

I did my hair just right

brushed my teeth about five times

shave the stubble against the grain

did you notice the whole time?

she said those words again

no, no, no

it was a pretty night anyway

when she said those words again

you drown out the thunder

Grey skies, green eye smile for me
Have i ever told you the way you glow in the dark?
All the times I said I'd give up
all the nights I spent staying up
all the nights you spent telling me what a bad idea it was

you know just how far I can sink
and for some reason you still stand by me
say you will, say you will
and you know I will too
say you won't, say you won't,
I'll still stick to you like glue

grey skies, brown eye smile for me
have I ever told you how you shine in the dark?
there's no lights in here so could you please come here?
Everything around you lights up when you're near

now listen, precious, I know that things are hard
and settle, darling, you know I won't lie
things will stay rough
you're the toughest that i know, and you won't let this one tear you apart
you've been through worse and back
and you'll see your light when you remember your part

now listen, precious, I know that things are hard
and settle darling, you know I won't lie
I know what you're thinking and we both know it's not right
you know I've been there before and you didn't let me give up the fight
I know what you're thinking and you never wanted me to
so why wouldn't I extend that same courtesy to you?

grey skies, green eye smile for me
have i ever told you how you shine in the dark?
grey skies, brown eye smile for me
you'll find your spot with this
listen, precious, call it your brand new start

you used to say

I've tried to keep a track of this
you always said you were the best
said this guitar's always had the best
your vocal chords said you had this

i've got this void to fill
you've got this voice to hear

feel the music dripping down your finger tips
bleeding out red from your wrist
feel it hit the ground like your last shred of love

i always said you were the best
so who's there to make up for this?
on the day that I wed will you be there
to tell me what I did wrong?
Like you did every other time?

i said i never knew of it
but i'm always keeping track on this
you said it was love
i said everything short of "you're a liar."

so feel it dripping off your finger tips
the way my hope dripped off the tip of your tongue

i've got this void to fill,
you've got this voice to hear
these screams got nothing to say
since there's nothing you want to hear

i tried to keep track of this
you always said you were the best
i wish you weren't right about it
but you've got all these songs playing for nothing

so pretend they mean it
pretend you care
pretend it means something
to someone somewhere
pretend you were right all along

so pretend you mean it
pretend they care
pretend it means nothing
to no one anywhere
pretend you were right all along

nothing irreparable has happened here

I can't pretend to know what you're going through
and in all honesty I don't care
you had your chance to change your station
and you passed it up like a forgotten prayer

said it never really mattered if all you gave me were lies
and it still won't matter because you're not where my future lies

so drop your head to your pillow
let out a breath
you got through today
and you've got nothing left
what's the point in waking up
to a cold dark room
when your whole point of waking up
has left you for good

tell your stories about the one who was right
go home at night and close your eyes
out of sight, out of mind, out of your big brown eyes
give a trite (excuse), see your plight, and give up the fight

excuse me miss, I think you dropped this on the ground
it looks like a list of reasons why you're not home bound
it's funny, I think that my name's at the top of it
bright bold letters say it better, at least you know who was right all along

Jennifer's Song

I'm no philosopher,
light and death are none of my concern
I'm just a boy with a mic and a guitar
that was given to me to play to ease your heart
you're just a girl with a voice and a heart
that needs something like this to plan a new start

I'm this broken hearted boy
who's got all these bandaids to try
and as much as I bleed, you'd think my guitar'd have stained by now
and you're this lost and hurting girl
you've got plenty laid out to try
as much as you sing, I'd think your vocal chords would bleed by now

but these songs keep coming
and the words keep slipping
and I'm stuttering over vials of verbs

she said "why do you always ask the deepest questions?"
I said I'm no phiolosopher,
but there's things I care to know

So listen to these songs
because that's the best you'll get of me
the honest truth, always the the best
always hurts the most to say
maybe they'll help you get some sleep
have a dream, for once, for once
maybe they'll help ease your pain
have a break, for once, for once

so take what you want from this
i wrote it all for you
that what you can from this
but in the end, (love), know
(love, love, love, love, love, love)
I'll sing until it's true
take what you may from this
but int he end, (love), know,
(love, love, love, love, love, love)
it's all been done for you

all these words bleed and tell the truth
so don't think it's me singing when this is stuck inside your head
I own the words, but what they said is what you said
you needed to hear
I'm just a story teller
you're the one living a life
I'm just a reporter
breaking news against the background fires
I'm just a story teller
you're the one giving life
to all these songs
singing in front of all these fires

This is how you pretend you're a real girl

I never loved you

 The way that I said 

You’re just a bad luck girl 

Who wants to live like the rest 

So call your boyfriend 

Though he treats you like shit 

Tell him how many hearts you’ve broken for him  

 You’re no stranger to lies and deceit 

So why the hell are you glaring at me?  

 You never loved me 

The way that you said 

I’m just a loveless boy 

Asleep like the rest 

So I’ll call all my friends 

And tell them about all the hearts you’ve broken for him   

You said you know you made a mistake 

Well that’s the first half of being right 

So let’s see the rest 

Well you ran back to him 

And that’s the last half of anything I thought we had left   

You know, you’re cute when you get that sly smile 

The one that says your mind’s made up in a mile 

But I’ll just sit here 

Feign some denial 

Because the only thing that’s real is your movie script style   

And baby, you know how I feel 

And you keep striking nails 

Attempt to feel real 

But it won’t work and let me tell you why 

Everything you break just takes you further away 

Everything you hurt just furthers the pain   

So drown your sorrows in that broken bottle 

There’s nothing I can say to make you swallow any harder 

And let’s hope for once in your life 

The alcohol makes you feel like you’ve done something right   

So drown your sorrows in his broken hands 

There’s nothing I could do to make you callous any faster 

But let’s pray, for once in your life 

The bruises are enough to make you feel alive   

Cigarettes and Sutures

sitting in the glow of the park lights

your last cigarette's smoke blows

like your last breath.

It's orange like the lights

it's orange like your mood

This is the part where I say something that makes you feel alive

but after times like these I have nothing left to say to you

you used to say you love me

and smile

and now you say it and wince

well baby I'm done with this

baby I'm done with you

and when we leave you'll know

sitting in the glow of the park lights

your last drag is done and we're in the night

here the day changes as fast as you gave up the fight.

and your eyes are shined over

but it's not from the drugs you ingested in the hope they'd make you feel alive

after times like these there's nothing left to take

I hear the birds in silence

in the frame of what you're about to say

and don't you think I knew that?

I'm only here cause of the nicotine in the air

not to hear old news about your new boy

so drop the smoke in a way that makes me smile.

watch it creep out your lips like the words of a lost child

I said the only reason I wouldn't be in your life is if you chose that path

well, you've been walking forever so why am I still holding your hand?

You're a liar, but I'm ok with that.

She said you had a head on your shoulders

and it looks like she were right

she said you were looking for love

but you're looking too hard

there was a time when you'd let me in on things

and now its too far gone

now i won't lecture 

because you've been here before

but i won't cross my fingers

cause you're walking out that door

and now you're back into his arms again?

control, manipulating your hands again?

am i even in your thoughts again?

painful, i know, manipulating your words again

suddenly everything has changed again

you gave me hope

of a time better spent

now it's breathe or choke

and you're gasping for that oxygen

I'm done bleeding over you

just thought I'd let you know

because it's obvious you're done 

breathing over me

don't worry babe, I know

Except this never happened.

Remember that joke you used to tell me?

The one where you said that you still loved me?

Let me tell you,

Before I caught you laughing I 

hung on to those words like they were oxygen

I breathed them in and breathed them out

but that was before I breathed curses under them

Remember that joke you used to tell?

The one about that boy who loved you?

That was a good one too,

except for all the nights spent lying under you

with you lying to my face

I breathed those words in, in and out

but that was before everything I found out...

I'm waiting for the punch line

as you're laughing with all your friends

I think that when I get it

I won't think it's nearly as funny as them

And that's not ok, but I'll say it is

because i like the way you smile

Remember when you got my hopes up?

And crushed them under your heel?

That wasn't too funny, and not all that clever,

but you'll know that when I repay the way I feel

They say an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind

but a heart for a heart means nothing

when your heart died years ago

They say an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind

but a heart for a heart means nothing

when your heart is as cold as the stone above my bed

I'm waiting for the punch line

as you're laughing with all your friends

I think that when I get it

I won't think it's nearly as funny as them

And that's not ok, but I'll say it is

because i like the way you smile

The love that you gave up on

all that love you left

Won't be here if you decide you want me back.

I'll move on, no more waiting

for you to say that shit again

Remember the joke I told?

The one about leaving you out in the cold?

Well, I think it'll be funny

when I'm watching you through the window sill

And maybe you will and maybe you won't

But I do hope you appreciate the irony I've built up

because I like the way you smile

Remember all the jokes we told each other?

Well, they're hers and mine now.

Remember the way we fit across your sheets?

Well we fit even better now

They said something about salts in wounds

and I'm hoping for them to form

so I can show you how this burns

"You Better Buy A One Way Ticket And A Moving Van"

You're gonna get on that flight tonight
and the only thing I can say is "don't forget me"
I've got this feeling you will
and I can't bear to take that with me

you were scared
i know, i know, i know
and you needed hands
i know, i know, i know
but i hope you see
i hope, i hope, i hope,
that mine are a better fit than his

in this moment you can't move
and its something wish you could
i'll stay here and fucked up for you
my eyes were red all night for you
i told them it was just the smoke
but really, this couldn't even come close

so go ahead
think i'm treating you better
in all honesty
it's just what you deserve
so go ahead
think him the better kisser
in all honesty
you haven't felt what you deserve

so go ahead
because in all honesty
just go ahead
in all honesty
i just hope you're happy
i mean go ahead
in all honesty
just go ahead
in all honesty
i can't help but hope
you choose me

you're gonna get on that flight tonight
and the only thing I have is
"call me when you get there"
maybe he'll forget
and maybe then you'll see
but I've got this feeling you'll forget
and i can't take that with me

(forget all about me, again)

crossed fingers, broken hearts
remember the way we fell apart?
remember all the chances in your heart?
lucky pennies, shooting stars
do you know what i wished for
in november nights?
i hope, i hope, i hope,
i hope you meant all those things you said

and I know, I know, I know,

you waited years just for this part

throwing quarters, little dippers
i hope you meant it when you said

i love you
and when you told me that it was over
i died
at least a little on the inside
i lost what you had given me
it was just too painful, see
it was just too plain to see
and maybe maybe maybe
when you land
you'll look him in the eyes
and maybe maybe maybe
when you land
you'll understand
what i've been saying all along

you waited years

then you gave up on me

i waited years

and i'm still waiting to see

you waited years

you were much to scared

i waited years

knowing soon you'll be brave

you're gonna get off that flight tonight

and when you do

i hope you think of me

"If this is a party, where the fuck is the rum?"

why can't i just let this go?

"I needed to get that off my chest," she said, 

and there's so many thing I want to say to that

why can't I just let this go?

I'll just bottle up these heartaches

I've got all the empty bottles I need

vicodin and captain and all their good friends

these cigarettes are solace and the alcohol burns warm

like your touch should have in the breaking dawn

what would I have to say

for you to say it back?

(if I said I need you

would you say it back?)

Is there anything anything

I could say I could say

to make you want me back?

(If you said you needed me

it wouldn't bring me back)

I hate that I'm questioning

I hate what I've become

maybe that makes

for better positioning

when I finally jump

Aaron said it best

in the sound of separation

"I was lying when I said that I was looking up"

They've written all my best

lines, and I'm lost in the desperation

what would I have to say

for you to say it back?

(if I said I need you

would you say it back?)

Is there anything anything

I could say I could say

to make you want me back?

(If you said you needed me

it wouldn't bring me back)

is this what you want from me?

Is that how i want to be?

what on earth could I even say?

is this how you want to be?

what is it you want from me?

why on earth would you even say?

I hate that I'm questioning...

I hate what I've become

I'm hoping this makes better knots

for when I finally jump

what would I have to say

for you to say it back?

(if I said I need you

would you say it back?)

Is there anything anything

I could say I could say

to make you want me back?

(If you said you needed me

it wouldn't bring me back)

Reflections are more dangerous than knives

remember when your tastes were your own?

now you only taste like them

remember when your thoughts were your own?

now you only think of them

I'm waiting for one of you to show me

you're not like all the others

smoke your cigarettes

drink your alcohol

smile when they tell you what you like

I hated when you dismissed Cursive

you said print was more your style

and now the only thing you write in is cursive

and your ink of preference is lies

so write my pain in your red ink

and wait for it to seep into your nailbeds

you'll remember me always,

from the paint in your skin

to your sheets and your nightstand

I hated when you told me my eyes weren't as bright

and that indie just wasn't your style

now the only thing you do is scene yourself

and really, have you seen yourself?

I'm waiting for one of you to show me

that you're not like the others at all

smoke your cigarettes

drink your alcohol

smile at me when they tell you what you like

remember when your tastes were your own?

Now you only taste like them

remember when your thoughts were your own?

now you only think like them

6 Feet Under, But Oh So Charming

face to sound and ears to the ground
you've got your roots all buried so deep
you've got everyone running around
face to ground and ears to the sound
you're just buried too deep
to ever be anywhere but homebound

got this town in your ears
and not in your heart, you say
and you say it all but you always stay
you just want to be new
to be clean and free and serene
you just want to be new

face to the grind and ears to the sound
they've got their roots all buried so deep
and they've got you running around
face to the sound, ears to the ground
they're buried to deep in you
for you to ever leave anything but underground

side by side, side by sound
conversation runs everything aground
you wanted anything but your face to the sound
got all these tastes winding and wound
around and around and around and around
your roots are just buried too deep
twisting around your neck in your sleep
get them under control before they tie you down
but you won't, and you can't, and you'll always lie



down


got this town in your ears
and not in your heart, you say
and you say it all but you always stay
you just want to be new
to be clean and free and serene
you just want to be new


want your friends like your friends want to feel
lie to yourself and say every thing's a heal
when you find out, when you find out about
you'll be too grown in to leave this town

methodic and melodic and wonderful

She doesn't want to go to sleep

because she doesn't know what tomorrow keeps

and it's all such a blur

tomorrow's folds hold nothing for 

and it's all such a blur

because tomorrow means nothing...

"I just need some direction

I just need some attention

I just need some affection

I just need anything"

she doesn't want to wake from sleep

because she's not sure what tomorrow keeps

and it's all such a blur

she knows tomorrow means new

and it's all such a blur

because tomorrow holds something

that she doesn't wish to hold

"i can't take the infection

and i don't like these injections

all i've got are these inflections

i could use anything"

it'll be neutral

she says

like the acids and bases 

that form her thoughts

it'll be neutral

she says

like the notes and breaths

that form her words

"I just need some direction

I just need some attention

I just need some affection

I just need anything

"i can't take the infection

and i don't like these injections

all i've got are these inflections

i could use anything"

and it's all such a blur

to her to her to her

and it's all such a blur

to her to her to her

and it's all such a blur

quickie

I've got this problem, see

when she's not here with me,

i get this feeeeeeeeling.

it's like i've been lost at sea

and there's something, something missing from me

but as soon as she comes back you'll see

but oh no, she's gone for good this time

she's not heading back this way

oh, no, she's gone for good for good for good

and there's nothing that can make her stay

so I've got this problem, see

because no one's here with me

I keep getting this feeeeeeling

I know far gone I can be

and I know exactly what's missing, missing from me

because I know she's not coming back to me

because

oh, no, she's gone for good this time

she's not heading back this way

oh, no, she's gone for good for good for good

and there's nothing I can say

this guitar's got your voice

and these strings are your vocal chords

and every note I play

and every word I sing

just reminds remind reminds me

that's she's staying staying away

You know how far gone I can be

so I hope somehow this makes you see

that there's no more room for "sorrys"

I hope somehow this makes you see

that you're the only, only girl for me.

wash away this desert town

do you remember when we were younger?

We used to think we were untouchable

but as we grew we learned to be smarter

and now we know there's no such thing as

untouchable

untouchable

we're not so 

untouchable

anymore

do you remember when you were younger?

you thought the earth spun way too fast

you said "why can't we slow down for just this summer?"

and now it's spinning way to slow for you so

slow

the earth is moving way too slow 

for you

slow

space just isn't growing fast enough

for you

we're just too

slow

i see the clouds

drowning out the light from the sun

and the only thing I think is

come and wash away this desert town

and it's getting darker

and the rain is falling down

and I can't help but say

please wash away this desert town

i remember all the things we used to say

from your rooftop in the summer

and all the games we used to play

before we jumped into the sky

remember all the ways you used to look into my eyes?

and all the ways you used to say the things that became lies?

so I know it's not in the way you looked at me

so I know it's not in the way you looked in me

it's all in the way you said

it's all in the way you said it

it's all in the way you said...

i see the clouds

drowning out the light from the sun

and the only thing I think is

come and wash away this desert town

and it's getting darker

and the rain is falling down

and I can't help but say

please wash away this desert town

so here's the rain

it can't wash your insides clean

but here's the rain

it'll douse your cigarette's flame

here's the wind

it'll blow your hair just the same

as the way he does when you're with him

maybe this will make you 

remember what you said

i can only hope, i guess

remember what you said?

So I hope

the alcohol leaves sores upon your porcelain lips

and it cuts across your teeth like the blade across my skin

maybe for once you'll remember, remember me

do you remember when we were younger?

we used to think we were untouchable

but as we grew, I learned you're a liar

and now I know there's no such thing as

untouchable

trite phrases, fresh faces

My sheets still smell like you

A vague reminder of a night spent

Wrapped around each other

With something in our eyes, I couldn’t tell you what it was

Though I’d like to think I knew

Is this the way out?

Well the next time I need to tell you something

I’ll make sure I know exactly what to say

Because I know everything (But you know more)

And I know what makes you tick (But you know so much more)

And I know the way your eyes look (But you know more)

When you’re crying on the inside (And you’re around no more)

My bed still has your impressions

And I have them too

The ones you left between my sheets

And the ones you left here in my head

A vague reminder of our last time spent together

When you had something in your eyes

And I knew exactly what it was

Is this the way out?

You had a way out

Well the next time I need to tell you something

I’ll remember to pick my words and keep my distance

(I’ll let you pick the distance and I’ll keep your words)

Because you know everything

(it takes more)

And I don’t know anything

(it takes so much more)

But I know the way your eyes look

(We used to be so much more)

When you’re smiling on the inside

“I don’t have a reason for this”

“Do you want a reason for this?”

“I don’t think I can find a reason for it”

This is the way my sheets smell after you

Your arms around my neck

(My remeron replacement)

“I don’t have a reason for this”

Your lips against my skin

(My vicodin addiction)

“Do you want a reason for this?”

Your eyes attached to mine

(My Percocet prescription)

“I don’t think I have a reason for it”

“Let’s stop living in the past”

Well the next time I tell you something

I’ll remember to do it with your speed and keep it concise

And I’ll do my best to make sure I’m not spilling contrite across your bed sheets

With our meaningless lipsyncs

Is this the way out?

Is this…

Is this the way out?

We're both capable of the most terrible things

I believe every word you say

I'm not going with you to our yesterday

every single word you say

only takes us back to where we were then

but at least now I can say

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Remember when you promised me you'd stay?

It's the one that started it all

I remember when you promised you'd stay

it's like a promise to take you away

i still hold on to the words you gave me

i think they're gonna be the last

i'll keep them close, just so you know

like they're gonna be the last

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

I woke up from a dream

I woke up from a nightmare

why are you not here? 

I woke up from a dream

you said it's not a dream

I woke up from a nightmare

you said it's not a nightmare

but you're still not here

stay with me tonight

and I'll still believe today

i was the one

if you stay with me tonight

you know I'll believe today

I was the one you wanted to stay

Don't wanna breathe

but I've got all these songs to sing

Don't wanna believe

but I've got all these words to say

stay with me til we need to leave

I've got all these things to lay

til the morning's fray fades away

Now I know

There's no way

Now I see

There's no way

Now I know

There's no way

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Now I know

Now I see

Dismantled, Broken, Golden

i had that dream again

the one where everything was amazing

and it all worked like it should

then I woke up again

and everything was a terrible mess

and it all fell apart if it could

if I could 

I'd hang up these vocal chords for good

and let the calluses on my fingers heal 

all the damage they've withstood

Here's another song to throw away

wash it down the drain

you're too busy to listen

with all your new friends

and all the better sounds they make

Will you even know it's for you?

If I didn't ever tell 

I'd like to think you'd somehow know

but I'm guessing the buzzing is much too strong for good

Did you even want another string of words

held together by this old guitar?

You don't have the time to answer these marks

so I'm doubting you'll even care

if I could 

I'd hang up these vocal chords for good

and let the calluses in my fingers heal 

all the damage they've withstood

If I could

I'd take you for you for good

and let the calluses on our hearts heal

all the damages they've withstood

but you won't let me

no you won't let me

no you won't let me, let me in

you won't let me

you won't let me

you won't let me let me in

If I could

I'd hang up these vocal chords for good

and let the calluses on my fingers heal

all the damage they've withstood

If I could

I'd take you for you for good

and let the calluses on our hearts heal

all the damages they've withstood

But I can't

until I sing the words so good

that it forever heals all the damage

you've gone through

I can't 

because you won't let me love you

until I get the lines down good

and until then, I know

Oh, I know,

that you won't let me in

RE: broken hearts, and how to fall apart

I'm asking the pharmacist for a little bit of everything

you gave me this condition, stricken, 

but there's no prescription for a broken heart

The alcohol burns but it seems like it works

when flirts turn to words and all my words are spurned

he said "I'm sorry son, but we don't have what you need.

The girl who did this to you is the only one you need to see."

So I told him, "Doctor, doctor, you don't understand, see,

she's not done with me just yet, and I'm scared to be around."

so did I learn anything from this night of written dreams?

No, I can't say that I have.

did you gain anything from turning down my screams?

no, I doubt you did

So I don't think I'll ever come back down

it hurts a lot, but it hurts worse to see you

so I don't think I'll ever come back down

because your words burn worse than you know

he said "I'm sorry son, but we don't have what you need.

The girl who did this to you is the only one you need to see."

So I told him, "Doctor, doctor, you don't understand, see,

she's not done with me just yet, and I'm scared to be around."

my eyes simply cannot take the beating

they get from knowing you're not looking for me

and my brain is wracked with concern

that you're not concerned about me

So I'm asking the pharmacist for a little bit of everything

something, anything, to numb the pain

there's no prescription for a broken heart, it seems

but the things I'm taking now seem to dull the sense and the dreams

he said "I'm sorry son, but we don't have what you need.

The girl who did this to you is the only one you need to see."

So I told him, "Doctor, doctor, you don't understand, see,

she's not done with me just yet, and I'm scared to be around."

Last night, the desert froze

they always play a slow song

when my breath is hanging in the air

outside your house, it's cold as hell

and they always play a slow song

I'm saying goodbye in the tires on the street

and I'm saying hello to all the people I'll never meet

I'm ready to leave you and all you are behind

but every time I try...

they always play a slow song

when my breath is hanging in the air

outside your house, it's cold as hell

and they always play a slow song

It's not in the way you told me

it's all in the way your eyes shone

it's not in the way you said it

it's all in the way you looked at me

This is my last cigarette

for another ten minutes or so

I'm wondering what you're thinking

and wishing you were here to hold

and as I'm leaving, I'm giving up again

It's just not worth all the time and the pain

I tell myself, hoping this time that it's true

but just as I'm leaving,

they always play a slow song

when my breath is hanging in the air

outside your house, it's cold as hell

and they always play a slow song

Cheesy McCheeserton (?)

when I told you

that I was a sucker for romance 

I would like you to know I meant it

but I don't think you got it

and I guess that's my penance

and my penchant for the advance

you're just a mess, you said

and I guess you meant it.

you've got this problem with nice guys

and loving the bad ones

and getting hurt in the process

but I'm telling you babe,  you're never second best

she said, "I'll give you a kiss and sing you a song,

anything you wish as long as you'll say nothing's wrong."

So I got my kiss but so far no song

and I can't honestly tell you that nothing's wrong

you're the sweetest of sweet

and an angel with hidden wings

but you're not mine to see

you're not mine to see

so here's your letter

it's short and filled with wishes for better

it's short and you'll never read it, ever

so here's your letter

it's sweet but it's got a taste of bitter

I'll never send it, it's not at all clever

and it's lacking the depth I see in your eyes

she said, "I'll give you a kiss and sing you a song,

anything you wish as long as you'll say nothing's wrong."

So I got my kiss but so far no song

and I can't honestly tell you that nothing's wrong

car rides in cursive

these nights mean the most

when you're riding behind me

and avoiding all the smoke

we all know i've got problems

but you still hang around and i know

you'll be there when I fall down

so play that music like you do

play the one you know I like

we've got these shows to do

and only so much time

before we leave the stage 

so play that last song

you know the one

who would have thought

you'd have friends like this by your side?

when the times get hard

you'll figure out who's got the time

and who's just there to take up light

who would have thought

you'd get friends like this helping through the night?

when you get lonely

know i'll be there to help you pass the time

and you know we'll steal the spotlight

these car rides are written in cursive

across our sleeves, next to the hearts we wear

like badges that remind us of the 

times we shared

the emperor's walking down the street

see how they all bow at his feet?

he's calling to the stars to watch them fall out of line

and he's got them right where he needs

the only things in this world

that are worth holding on to

are the things we cherish most

from all the friends we hold so close

so hold on to them through the pain and all the noise

and I'll tell you once

they'll be there with you enjoying the night

and they'll be there when you've got the noose too tight

who would have thought

you'd have friends like this by your side?

when the times get hard

you'll figure out who's got the time

and who's just there to take up light

who would have thought

you'd get friends like this helping through the night?

when you get lonely

know i'll be there to help you pass the time

and you know we'll steal the spotlight

Stay or Walk Away (Feat. Bobaganoosh)

you said you'd wait forever

but is forever long enough for you?

you said it wouldn't take forever

buts what's a boy to do?

tick tock goes the clock

all you're doing is coming and going

i'm getting tired of this flip flop

it's time for your decision

it's stay or walk away, babe,

it's stay or walk away

and you should know

I'm ready to shut this door

lock it up, throw the key away

your side of the mattress

is staying just like new

i can't think of quitting you

but I might just buy a twin

what's the point in holding on to what never gets used?

you're never here with me at night

and that half of the bed gets so cold

without you by my side

why can't you just make up your mind?

you know you're welcome to sleep here tonight

and everything will be just fine

it's an open invitation

to escape from all of your frustrations

you're scared of separation

and i swear I taste the desperation...

if you'd just stay the night

stay all the thoughts inside your head

and just stay with me tonight

and everything would be just fine

but all i hear is the

tick tock of the clock

all you're doing is coming and going

I'm getting tired of this flip flop

it's time for your decision

it's stay or walk away, babe,

it's stay or walk away

and you should know

I'm ready to shut this door

lock it up, throw the key away

what's out there for you

beyond that porchlit door?

is there something that you'd want even more

than my arms wrapped around you?

it's about time, dear

you make up your mind, for fear

i'll make it up for you...

I'm tired of hearing the

tick tock of the clock

I'm done with the coming and going

and with this flip flopping

it's time for your decision

it's time for one of us to make up our mind

it's stay or walk away, babe,

it's stay or walk away

and you should know

I'm shutting this door

locking it up, throwing the key away

thank you, Tomas Kalnoky, that's what I needed to hear.

here's to sleeping pills and potions

and all the nights you forgot about me

all the nights you forgot about a boy

that you're not in love with any more

you've got me feeling my worst again

and you didn't even try this time

you've got this blade against my skin

and you're not even pushing and i'm already bleeding

Im already bleeding again

how long before I break?

I've been counting the minutes and counting the grievances

you build me up to watch me fall

and take all my heartache along with the grace of nothing at all

i'm nothing at all

you've got me feeling my worst again

and you didn't even try this time

but I've got my drinks and all my sins

you're not even pushing and I'm already falling

I'm already falling again

here's to hoping I even the score

I wish I was half as capable of what you are

but I'm just lying on the floor

desperate as ever and dying to hear you more

and I told you not to worry 

not to worry about me

don't you worry about a boy 

who you're not in love with any more

you've got me feeling my worst again

and you're not even trying this time

desperate as ever, like I said

I'm holding tight to this pen

hoping it explodes and leaves lying on the floor

you said you were making plans

and I didn't even realize before the end

that it was too late to see your face

or to see me ever standing again

Dear _____________, Love, Me

i could swear that I don't care
but you know that I can't lie to you
and I'll swear up and down that you won't hear
but I really hope you do
and I'll pretend these lines don't mean shit and swear
that you won't care...
but I really hope you do
it's nothing new, but nothing hurts like you

I've made myself this hospital bed
out of your memories and words you said
it's falling apart and half a mess
but that's ok because I am too
I've made myself this I.V. drip
out of nicotine and the words you skipped
it's running out and such a mess
but that's ok because I am too

the stories here are the same
you can find them anywhere
I've copied the words from the back of your hands
and the ones you liked to say to me
but it's all the same, as you can see
I've just put your name in the space that's blank
It's nothing new, but nothing hurts like you

I've made myself this hospital bed
out of your memories and words you said
it's falling apart and half a mess
but that's ok, because I am too
I've made myself this I.V. drip
out of nicotine and the words you skipped
it's running out, and such a mess
but that's ok, because I am too

i know you know how this feels
because I did the same to you
so this song is just as much for you to sing
as it is about all the things you did
it's just as much for you to curse
as it about the way your lips pursed
right before all the nights we never kissed
it's nothing new, but nothing hurts like you

I've made myself this hospital bed
out of your memories and words you said
it's falling apart and half a mess
but that's ok, because I am too
I've made myself this I.V. drip
out of nicotine and the words you skipped
it's running out, and such a mess
but that's ok, because I am too

i made myself this dependence
out of the things you did and the way you danced
it's going strong, it's hurting less
but that's not ok, because I'm not blessed with you
I've made myself this way to sleep
out of benadryl and the things you keep
to yourself, well it's been a week
and that's not ok, because I'm not asleep with you

it's nothing new, but nothing hurts like you
it's not ok, nothing hurts like the things you say
it's nothing new, because nothing hurts like you
and I'll pretend these lines don't mean shit and swear
that you won't care...
but I really hope you do
it's nothing new, but nothing hurts like you

Relapse

You used to be worth more than this to me
but now your voice just isn't enough
to stop me from becoming me
and I’m sure I’m just in the rough

surprise, I wasn't who you thought I was
surprise me, I'll show you how we do it

I'm more likely to try this than I've let on
I'm sorry if you don't like it but
you've really got no say in this part...
surprise me, I'll show you how we do it do it...

oh, sweet chemical frustration
it's ok, I said, we're all doing just fine
and as I tipped another bottle back
I started to believe the things I said...

when I remember all the times you stopped the bleeding
I think it's safe to say you've saved my life
but now you're no longer mine...
and I can't let you interfere this time

surprise, I wasn’t what you thought you want
surprise me, I’ll show you how we play it around here…

but don't you worry, dear
I hope you hold no fear
I made sure the needle was clean
right before I went to sleep
it's not a big deal
so don't worry dear,
close your heart, hold no fear
I made sure the edge was sharp
right before I called you back

what a big surprise, I wasn’t what you thought you want
what a big surprise, nothing’s the way you said because you can’t again

so we decided we should never have started
because now we just have to stop
i guess that's just the way that this goes
it's just unfair from my eyes to yours
but i just dreamt this recipe

oh, daring chemical concoction
We’ll try two parts grief and one part jealousy
A dash of sweet vindication
And drink it down with the rest of your memories





and if you got the news
some boy you knew had died tonight
would I see you in the pews?
would you bring him and ruin our last goodbye?

hey baby thanks a lot,
surprise, that's what I thought.

Lapse

Thanks a lot
I've been losing from the start
I never had a chance in this game you played
the one where you got into my chest and stole my, heart

Well thanks a lot
I'd like you to know what I thought you meant to me
or what I thought I meant to, you
But I guess we didn't mean anything from the, start

And now we're saying maybe we should never have started
instead of never having stopped
and isn't that the way that this, goes?
it's just unfair from my eyes to, yours
your baby browns got nothing against
your baby browns have got nothing against it

Well thanks a lot
you called my bluff
and i'm not capable of half the hurt I'd, want
to see you in sweetie
and unfair as it may, be
you just forgot to remember me
and that's all there is to, this
and that's all there is to see

Well thanks a lot
I went from top to bottom
in no time at all
But don't you worry, dear
I hope you hold no, fear
I made sure the blade was clean before I, cut
and it's not as deep as it seems
it's just red from all the, oxygen
oh what lovely chemistry
that's lead us so far astray
and it's not as bad as it seems

Hey baby thanks a lot
I smoked all my pain away
thinking in reds and blacks has lead my head, away
and my lungs ache from all the extra oxygen
that I'm letting back into my system
I ran away from you
and made it to the bottom in just no time at all
But I don't think you can see
even though it's not as deep as it seems
you're just not looking in the right direction at all
so I guess it's as deep as it seems

And now we're saying maybe we should never have started
instead of never having stopped
and isn't that the way that this, goes?
it's just unfair from my eyes to, yours
your baby browns got nothing against
your baby browns have got nothing against it

I'm dangerous in second best

I don't know if there's enough to go around
but I'm hoping you'll take from me what you can get
what's left of me besides the sound
but here's to you getting what you sent

and oh my
you're looking beautiful tonight
at least I'm assuming because I haven't seen you smiling in a while
and oh my you're looking so extravagant tonight
and I'm not all knowing
but I doubt he's at all disappointed in tonight

I'm holding out for you
but you've got other plans
other plans for me and you
Your words were mixed up in the telephone line
because you said something about the future
and me and you and love
and and I'm tearing out my sutures
so can someone sew me back up please?
sew me back up please

until I arrive
I just hope that you're happy
until you wake
I hope you're thinking of me
because I know that in the daylight you see his smiling face
and everything is just so bright
and so I'll talk to you tomorrow night

this smoke is so thick
and the embers are charring my skin
they're writing your name in
cursive across the the same place
where you held me
held my hand and looked in my eyes
and now there's nothing but smoke and cries
in the place where you once said you loved me most of all

until I arrive
I just hope that you're happy
until you wake
I hope you're thinking of me
because I know that in the daylight you see his smiling face
and everything is just so bright
and so I'll talk to you tomorrow night

Here, I wrote you a song. Knock yourself out

he's sitting in his bed
he's got this story in his head
this story about a girl
and the whirlwind
that brought them both to an end

they're all poised just right
all the characters
and all their plights
but the story's about his girl
just enough to make you sick
the words are on the tip
of her tongue oh, what fun!

he knows where they go
where all the bad ones go
all the criminals and broken bones
but he can't place her,
she'll go down as the one that
got the best of him, in the end

you're running from the pain
it's so easy to see
why don't you just wait?
you've got all this time
you'll be doing just fine
when all is written in the end

with every breath
i've got your number
i've got your guesses and the place where you slumber
with every breath
you get further away
you've got all my messes and all my mistakes

you've got your pistol loaded with excuses
and some more rounds of apologies
"i don't knows..." and "i'm so sorrys"
you'll shoot them at him but it will be useless
he's got his pen and what happened is bulletproof
the ink won't run the way the blood would
"I don't knows.." and "I'm so sorrys"
don't work on hearts made out of cold and slate

Who measures the desperate measures?

Traded this pen
for your cigarette
Because I swore I wouldn't write another song about you
But here I go again

I see your lips mouth "I love you"
But the words I hear are "I told you so"
And you know I won't say "no"
to another day of you

We traded our sins
like it was "tit for tat" or "that for this"
And so I swore I wouldn't write another song for you
But here I go again
Because I've got your smile in my head
and your voice in my ears
Saying "remember those nights in your bed?
And saying aloud all our biggest fears?"

I see your lips mouth "I love you"
But the words I hear are "I told you so"
Because you know I can't say "no"
to another night with you

Just one more night
we'll lie awake
just another night
we'll lie to fate
the phones are ringing off the hook
since we figured how the world shook
but when it's quiet... can you feel it?
when it's quiet...I know you see it
when it's quiet...
I hope you hear my voice
Because my lips are mouthing
"I swear I won't write another song for you"
But I'm really saying "baby I love you too."

Self-Injury

Surround myself with smoke
because at least it's here, you know?
and maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself
and you're probably right about that, you know?
So I surround myself with flame
because at least it's warm, you know?
and maybe I'm just hurting myself
because you're probably right about that, you know?

You don't know how much I miss you
and maybe if you could see the scars you would
but I'm not taking the band aids off
I kinda wish you could see, too
but I doubt you would understand, could you?
but I'm not taking the band aids off

A secret's silence is a secret's safe

Just think of all the things you don't
and feel all the things you won't
and see all the things you don't
and hear my voice say you can't
and know that I'm wrong

Ashes burn my skin
such a little thing
such a little scar
means the world
when you're so far

so I fall down
my hands hurt from the prayers
and the embers
I'm burning like a bridge
and I'm falling from so far down
I'm falling for sure

Step into the light
so I can see what
they've done to you
Fall from grace
with more style than bright
but don't tell them what you know

and now I fall down
my hands burn from the prayers
and the embers
I'm burning like a bridge
And I'm falling for sure

It's coming down
I'm coming down
I won't let on
But I want you to know
I'm falling down
It's falling down
I can't tell them
but I thought you should know
What no one else could know
because you already do

I want to be strong enough
to say enough is enough
I want to be new
and I want to be clean
But I know I'm not
and I haven't seen enough
I'm not new, and I'm not clean
But I thought you should know
What no one else could know

Summer heights, sleepless nights

a head full of worry
and lungs full of smoke
and these ashes keep falling on my skin
but that's alright, I know I'm ok

You know I'm thinking of you
at least I hope you do
So... here's your thought for the night
it's about how you keep me up at night

my throat burns
but I don't want to stop
I hope I still cross your mind
when you see smoke crown from lips

You know I'm thinking of you
baby, I know you do
Here's your thought for the night
About how I dream of your touch in the night

This smoke breaks
like the waves I wish I was under
The waves you bring
The ones of hope and cover

I'm feeling withdraws
i've hit a wall
I was going so fast
but now I'm heading for a fall
And i don't know if it's missing you
or just the nicotine
But I need you here
and you're so far from me
A head full of worry
and lungs full of smoke
I've got all these addictions
but you're the most potent of all

The Basic Essentials Of A Very Bitter Young Man

I'm tired of liars and midnight lovers
Cigarettes glowing through the night
and pictures of all the others fading without any light

So this one goes out to anyone who's ever said,
"I'm tired of this shit, let's get it together."
The ones who can't stand to take another hit
The ones who can't be under cover anymore
because their cover isn't anymore

I'm tired of liars and dreams that seem too real
Cigarettes burning through the night
When nothing in this town seals a deal
Without the consent of people who haven't seen the real thing

Is there just too much to take, to tell?
Well here's my card, it says,
"Welcome to everyone's personal hell."
So if you've been waiting for your sign
to do something to makes you smile
This is it

I'm tired of liars and long distance phone calls
All the missed calls and bad connections aren't doing it for me
There's cigarettes burning states away
Lighting up the night like fireflies
Until they're put out like everything else in this town

Credit deposits, lost tuition
Dooney and Burke handbags and
brand new cars collecting dust
Withdrawn deposits spent with no fruition
Reading what you want in magazines and
your whole life collecting dust

I'm tired of liars and charlatans
Your cigarettes don't light up the day
like mine light up the night.
At least I'm trying to make things brighter
At least I can say I'm trying